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Being pregnant really shows who cares about you and who doesn't.This whole pregnancy isn't easy but it seems to be getting alot easier.I know that if it wasn't for my mother I would have lost it a long time ago.Everyone who I thought was going to be here for me and support this whole thing are turning out to be different people when I really need them.People that I have been there for no matter what and done everything for are just shitting on me when I need them now.I have been trying to get those people as far away from me as posible, this is a time where I have a chance to start my life over with this new life and I dont need people(family or not)bringing me down.I would rather have noone in my life other than my immidiate family then have these people in my life or in Lillys life.I have to think about this every second of everyday because this is my daughters life and its just not fair for her that these people can't think about anyone eles long enough to be in it.
Theres been talk about moving and I hope that happens because I dont want to raise her here.I want a chance to get away from everything that has always brought me down here and to get away from these people for good so I dont have to spend the rest of her life worrying about them trying to be apart of her life.I'm so much better without them and I know she would be too.I just cant wait till September because then all this wont matter anymore, all this worrying will just go on pause for a while because im going to have the most beautiful little girl in the world..i just have to keep thinking of that.
Theres been talk about moving and I hope that happens because I dont want to raise her here.I want a chance to get away from everything that has always brought me down here and to get away from these people for good so I dont have to spend the rest of her life worrying about them trying to be apart of her life.I'm so much better without them and I know she would be too.I just cant wait till September because then all this wont matter anymore, all this worrying will just go on pause for a while because im going to have the most beautiful little girl in the world..i just have to keep thinking of that.