I hate being sick!
Yeah I am sick once again. I just dont understand why I get sick all the time. You would think by me being at the doctors and in the hospital all the time that I wouldnt but who knows. Right? Today I didnt do to much. I rearranged my room. I'm so weird I change my room like 3 times a month. I hate things being the same. I'm like that with a lot things I guess and thats a bad thing most of the time. After I did that my sister came and picked me up and we went shopping and I bought things for my room because I am once again in the process of redoing it like the paint and shit. I just got done painting it light pink even tho thats not the color I wanted. But oh well. Now I am painting 2 walls Hot Pink, 1 wall Black, and the other one White and I am going to work from there. I know thats not going to last to long but oh well. After me and my sister went shopping we met my parents and my bro at Chilis because we went out to eat for my sisters birthday even though it's not until Wed. but we wont see her until next weekend because like last week she decided that she wasnt going to come down during the week which she used to do every Tuesday because we went for dinner at my Mems. but now she says it's to much work and only comes down on the weekends if we are lucky. It's weird cuz I went from seeing her everyday to not seeing her at all then to seeing her every once and a while then moving in with her and seeing her everyday now I am back to seeing her every once and a while. I hate that because she is the only one that understands me. I know it sounds odd but she is the only one that can understand what I go threw with my parents and my brother. Because they are so hard to live with it's ridiculous I know I am not perfect but it's just hard to explain. I dont know. It's so stressful. I really think I have bad depression. I know that I am one of those people that puts on a smile for everyone regardless of how I feel. I guess it's the same thing as I dont let myself cry especially infront of people. I dont like to make people worry or them wanting me to share stuff. It makes me feel like I am putting my problems on someone. It's weird. Well I dont know. I dont have to take the bus in the morning I guess that is a plus and I dont have to work tomorrow night that is also great! I guess I am out like a fat kid in dodge ball I am wicked tired and I feel like shit. So Good Night!
[xoOx <3 Katey]