Why I havent been Writin in here

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OK.. There has been alot going on with you know.. school and all that crap! but.. Larry's dad died and its just horrible.. cuz i was talkin to Larry today at lunch and he was telling me about his mom.. and I just wanted to cry! BUT I DIDNT! I went to the funeral.. it was like 2 weeks ago.. but.. GOsh.. im still not over him.. everytime i see and talk to him it dont help.. but now .. i just dont know.. Ive tryed to avoid him.. its just impossible bc then i just want to see him more and its so complicated.. but.. the "ONLY REASON" i talked to him at lunch was bc i was with my friends you know.. Nick the spanish boys that make fun of me and everyone else.. ashley was lord only knows where.. but.. he was all by himself just eatin his lunch.. so i went and sat by him.. he kept giving me this funny look and was like.. U know.. i doubt i will ever have another chance with you.. I was thinking.. GOSH.!!! STOP!!!! you just hit a speed bump! Ok.. Im a loser.. I know! but.. at least i admit it! but.. other than school i have 3 days a week with tennis.. and i quit takin at prc .. now i take at west lake 2 days and rae's creek one day! its actually alot of fun! but.. even when im not at lessons i still play tennis like Every day! which.. is ok sometimes! but today.. ever since i got home.. there has been NO ONE HERE.. so.. i ate and cooked dinner for myself.. did laundry.. cleaned the kitchen and did my homework!!! THat is so amazing! you just dont know! but.. i will still be alone till like 12! so.. Im goig to be sittin at the computer going out of my mind InSaIn! But.. travis's bday is comin up.. and he wanted me to draw him a picture and write a poem.. and i was just thinking.. OMG!!!! I dont want to do that.. but its the least i can do for his bday.. cuz.. i mean.. i drove his car everywhere for like.. A LONG time. till he got a new car.. so i have been workin on that.. and i still havent made a poem for it.. but i still have 6 days.. well more like 5.. i dont know! GOsh! i confuse myself! But.. The other day.. i jumped in the pool to swim some cuz.. im a loneswimmer! but.. The water was like ICE!!! I moved around alot for like 10 minutes and it was just gettin colder! and So .. i got out after a few laps!BUt.. Enough of that! Im going to the Ga, Sc border bash tomorrow! Its going to be fun! im going with ashley bridget and ellen! FuNfUn!!! but.. well.. i dont want to type any more! so.. bye~!
I have been better, but i cant help but to miss you