Love...
I've been watching the 7th Heaven marathon today. It's all about Matt and Sarah and their relationship. The episode where he meets her and decides to marry her got to me. In these episodes he's a little over 21, they just keep seeing a little older than 21, they don't actually tell you his age. It hit home though, he wakes up and realizes that he wants to get married, and that he isn't going to date anyone one date passed the point where he sees that won't happen. This makes perfect sense to me. Him and Sarah then go on to discuss everything that they want in life, and they realize that they are different, but very similar when it counts. They both then decide to get married after that first official date, without hesitation or thought.
I'm not saying that I'm looking to get married tomorrow, but understand not wanting to date someone if you can't see yourself marrying them, or rushing into things like that. I've realized that I want to get married, I want to be in a serious relationship. I'm done being single, I'm done with stressing over Chris. It's going to be hard to let go, but I have to. Cause I don't see myself marrying him. He needs to lose about 30lbs and he snores when he sleeps. Not a little snoring, but tons like worse than my dad. I know it sounds crazy, but hey I deserve the best for me, and he isn't cutting yet. Yeah I love him, and I know that he loves me, but I want someone to worship the ground I walk on, or at least take me out on dates at least once a month, and someone I can see more than once a week!
Okay so I'm looking for a guy to worship me, I don't mean in the crazy nutty psycho sense, but someone who realizes that I am a great caring compassionate person who wants and deserves to be treated like a woman, and above all I deserve to be happy. I would prefer someone with blonde hair and blue eyes so my wonderful children will have blonde hair and blue eyes, but it's not required. I want someone who will constantly challenge me to be better, someone who gets under my skin and can still get a rise out of me even after many years together. I want someone who is Catholic, but will settle with someone who is Luthern if need be, other than that I'm not interested. I want someone to share my same beliefs when it comes to children and how to raise them. This person needs to come from the same economic background as me, and should be striving to make more money than me. I also expect that this person will have hope, dreams, and ambition. I want this person to be funny, practical, sensible, and charming. I want someone to swoop me off my feet, someone I can fall head over heels in love with after just meeting them. I want to be able to get tingles every time I see him, and every time we kiss for it to be just like the first time. I want the wedding I've been dreaming of since I was a child. I want some who can romance me for the rest of my life. I want someone to give me momments that I will remember for the rest of my life. I just want someone who can make me feel happy about myself, my life, and the person I'm with. I want a person who will love me for all my faults and wrong doings.
I don't know I just realize what I want from someone else. I need to figure out what I want to do with my career now, but somehow I feel like who I am going to be with for the rest of my life is based on what I want to do with my career. Everything is interlinked. I want to be a PA, but I also want to take care of my kids when I have them. Not to mention where am I going to find a Doctor or whatnot to marry if I don't stay in school. It sounds so 50's, where girls went to college to meet a husband, well we do the same thing now, we just move on to professional school to find a husband. I guess I'm very traditional. Oh well. I just wnat to find that someone tomorrow, I'd settle for tomorrow rather than today, but I don't want to wait very much longer, cause I don't think I can.
I'm not saying that I'm looking to get married tomorrow, but understand not wanting to date someone if you can't see yourself marrying them, or rushing into things like that. I've realized that I want to get married, I want to be in a serious relationship. I'm done being single, I'm done with stressing over Chris. It's going to be hard to let go, but I have to. Cause I don't see myself marrying him. He needs to lose about 30lbs and he snores when he sleeps. Not a little snoring, but tons like worse than my dad. I know it sounds crazy, but hey I deserve the best for me, and he isn't cutting yet. Yeah I love him, and I know that he loves me, but I want someone to worship the ground I walk on, or at least take me out on dates at least once a month, and someone I can see more than once a week!
Okay so I'm looking for a guy to worship me, I don't mean in the crazy nutty psycho sense, but someone who realizes that I am a great caring compassionate person who wants and deserves to be treated like a woman, and above all I deserve to be happy. I would prefer someone with blonde hair and blue eyes so my wonderful children will have blonde hair and blue eyes, but it's not required. I want someone who will constantly challenge me to be better, someone who gets under my skin and can still get a rise out of me even after many years together. I want someone who is Catholic, but will settle with someone who is Luthern if need be, other than that I'm not interested. I want someone to share my same beliefs when it comes to children and how to raise them. This person needs to come from the same economic background as me, and should be striving to make more money than me. I also expect that this person will have hope, dreams, and ambition. I want this person to be funny, practical, sensible, and charming. I want someone to swoop me off my feet, someone I can fall head over heels in love with after just meeting them. I want to be able to get tingles every time I see him, and every time we kiss for it to be just like the first time. I want the wedding I've been dreaming of since I was a child. I want some who can romance me for the rest of my life. I want someone to give me momments that I will remember for the rest of my life. I just want someone who can make me feel happy about myself, my life, and the person I'm with. I want a person who will love me for all my faults and wrong doings.
I don't know I just realize what I want from someone else. I need to figure out what I want to do with my career now, but somehow I feel like who I am going to be with for the rest of my life is based on what I want to do with my career. Everything is interlinked. I want to be a PA, but I also want to take care of my kids when I have them. Not to mention where am I going to find a Doctor or whatnot to marry if I don't stay in school. It sounds so 50's, where girls went to college to meet a husband, well we do the same thing now, we just move on to professional school to find a husband. I guess I'm very traditional. Oh well. I just wnat to find that someone tomorrow, I'd settle for tomorrow rather than today, but I don't want to wait very much longer, cause I don't think I can.