And Im starting to see that it has nothing to do with me
What is left to say when all I want to say is pointless. I feel so cold and almost numb. I want to so bad for it to be summer. I just keep thinking of the countdown. But its like it never ends! I read my year book and all of the upper classmen tell me to have fun, and all that because it "flys by". Im not saying that it wont. But right now just seems to be so-so. I can't really put it into words. Im worried at the same time. The ones who graduated wont bother to call. They will get busy and by the time they want to hang out, they will have lost my number. But If all I am is a memorie, im fine with that as long as its one full of laughter and good times.
I got burned on my brothers motorcycle the other day and it hurts. But not as bad as this brokenness inside of me. I am truly as happy as I want to be. If it were anyother way, I would have to think something is wrong. I am only one who looks for the best in others. And I can say that it won't always be easy. Yet, we all have a good side.