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8 more days of middle school, and i cant wait. Im so sick of this year and all the crap that has come along with it, i thought eight grade would be better. I assumed that the people in our grade matured but sure enough more then half of us didnt. This summer is going to be horrible and i know it, i keep lying to myself saying its going to be awesome. But how is that possible when next year the people that i have come to love, probably wont even be in my life. The thought of high school is scary, but adding onto it that the people that helped me get through this year more then likely wont be there next makes it even worse. Staying at south charlotte almost sounds better, and i hate everything about that damn school. But it really has been a pretty awesome 3 years, i got put in awesome homebases every year, made alot of friends, lost even more(not such a good thing), but learned alot of stuff(not education information :/) on the way. But im still so clueless, i dont get whats happening lately. I dont talk to my "Best friend" anymore and to me it seems like we have been acting like we dont know each other anymore. Wow we are going to different schools, and maybe we wont talk as much but why mess up the last few days that we will have together? Billy is moving at the begging of this summer, and that honestly breaks my heart in two. I love him so much, and i cant imagine what its going to be like without him. Billy has been there for me about anything forever and now he is moving to Ten. and i dont know what im going to do. Tate is going to myers park and i have gotten really close to him, he's like my brother. We fight about everything and make the biggest deals about nothing and then manage to be perfectly fine the next day(for the most part). There's so many people from last year that i was so close to that i dont even talk to anymore and we all go to the same school, that scares me. Because if we cant even manage to talk after a summer when we see each other everyday whats going to happen with everyone thats not going to Providence. Today in homebase while playing scabble(jealous?) with zach and trey and josh i realized how awesome our homebase actually is. Im so happy that we got put into Martinez's class we all say we hate her, but she is honestly not that bad. Im going to miss my homebase.. alot of us are going to different schools (out of state, south, providence, myers). I hope everything gets pulled together before then last day of school, because if this year ended the way it is right now, i dont know what i would do..