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Kenny and I broke up.
It happened a few days ago but I just couldn't get myself to write about it. Because if I write about it that makes it true. And I just don't know if I can deal with it.
Now I know what they mean when they say reality comes crashing down.
Reality is loud and scary and totally unforgiving.
I deserve this, I know I do. I've hurt him so bad, I've hurt so many people here. It's difficult to even look in the mirror anymore. I'm not looking to get in another relationship, at least not for a while, not until I've fixed myself. I really deserve this.
do i really deserve this?
It happened a few days ago but I just couldn't get myself to write about it. Because if I write about it that makes it true. And I just don't know if I can deal with it.
Now I know what they mean when they say reality comes crashing down.
Reality is loud and scary and totally unforgiving.
I deserve this, I know I do. I've hurt him so bad, I've hurt so many people here. It's difficult to even look in the mirror anymore. I'm not looking to get in another relationship, at least not for a while, not until I've fixed myself. I really deserve this.
do i really deserve this?