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[sexed]

So, as some of you know...I'm applying to Peace Boat , which would give me a job teaching English on a cruise ship as it travels around the world over the course of 3 1/2 months. My job ended in August, and I've been sitting around collecting unemployment, studying for the Japanese proficiency test, and applying for this job. I really want to go

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why do I always come off as a bitch in your lj comments?

[pelelynn]

here's a thought: you could get a job. a 9-5, honest to goodness job.

I find myself sort of bemused by the idea that grad school is what people turn to when they aren't really sure of what they want to do.

I know you've spoken before about grad school. But I just don't think it's a good idea to go to grad school just because you're not sure what to do. because then, it's just one more thing to do that puts off the so-called real world, rather than an experience where you're there because you are passionate about something and want to learn it and study it and breathe it for the next X amount of years--and most likely get sick of school, in a big way, but never the subject.

(also, the idea of a master's for you in japanese culture confuses me as well--really, what's the point? what will that allow you to do that actually living and teaching in japan for 3+ years won't? besides possibly live in japan for a longer period of time without having to worry about being deported?)

but I say this having just completed a 3 year master's degree program, yet sitting in the starlab, wanting the 9-5. I'm actually *TRYING* to get to the real world and it laughs and remains just on the horizon.

if you look around, the reality is that people our age are starting to do the whole grown-up thing. Joe, case in point.

I was skeptical of the whole "we have to follow our dreams!" bit when I was with Pat, but now I'm over it. Totally. This is not to say that I don't have dreams, or intend to follow them. I absolutely have plans to write poems and write a book. But I am aware that I need to balance that, my creative aspiration, with other things I want. Living in a van is not a romantic idea--it's gross. And it's not wrong for me to want stability or a regular job with health insurance. I spent way too long being made to feel that I was boring and uninspired in my realization of that. By someone who thinks he's a fucking cat. but I digress.

my point is, growing up and doing the grown-up stuff is an option. and it's not a bad one.