Life is changing...
So I did it!! I'm graduating on Sunday!!! This is closure to one stage in life. Now I have so many doors that I can open and I have to pick one which will change my life forever. I'm very proud of myself. I scored a perfect on my portfolio. I have received 3 Distinguished evaluations from both my mentors and my university supervisor. I will be graduating with a GPA of at least a 3.5. I have health, I have love, I have friendship. My plans after graduation are to help at home with my father to complete the basement. I will be moving home around August with my 3 cats (so there will be a total of 5 at my parents house, yes they are all mine, I know it's kinda weird). My cousin is coming to visit MD the last week of June and I'm supposed to show her a good time. I'm planning on throwing a huge yard sale in my parents huge front yard the July 4th weekend with my cousin to help me. We'll see how that goes.
Lots of things are changing all at once. Being a teacher has its moments. It's so great to know that you have touched so many of the children. Especially when those children are sometime desolate and lonely. Some of them just cry out for love and it's a great feeling to know that you have given a child what they need.
As far as my relationship with John goes. I finally had slowed down enough yesterday to realize that I love John. I love him but I haven't told him yet and I'm scared to tell him. I don't want to scare him and I secretly don't want to be rejected again. I'm trying to tell myself to relax and to let things flow. Once I get past the summer and I become busy teacher lady again those things will get easier. I haven't decided yet if I want to work at the daycare again this summer, part time. I loved the kids I'm just not sure if I'm up to the challenge or that I want to work my last summer off before the real world hits me. I'll figure it out.
I have to get going...just wanted to document my feelings at this point.
Lots of things are changing all at once. Being a teacher has its moments. It's so great to know that you have touched so many of the children. Especially when those children are sometime desolate and lonely. Some of them just cry out for love and it's a great feeling to know that you have given a child what they need.
As far as my relationship with John goes. I finally had slowed down enough yesterday to realize that I love John. I love him but I haven't told him yet and I'm scared to tell him. I don't want to scare him and I secretly don't want to be rejected again. I'm trying to tell myself to relax and to let things flow. Once I get past the summer and I become busy teacher lady again those things will get easier. I haven't decided yet if I want to work at the daycare again this summer, part time. I loved the kids I'm just not sure if I'm up to the challenge or that I want to work my last summer off before the real world hits me. I'll figure it out.
I have to get going...just wanted to document my feelings at this point.