An Update...because I must!

[sexcatdana]

Ok so the teacher took pictures of us for the computer and creativity class last night. They're on the online site we go to for class and goddamn if I'm not the fattest one in the class!! It's like you scroll down "Skinny, skinny, skinny, skinny...JESUS! It's Dana!!" I'm like what the hell. Do I really look that fat?? Do my eyes just deceive me every morning that I look at myself in the mirror. I mean I think I look ok with clothes on and gross without clothes on...but I didn't know it was *that* bad with clothes on!! I look like I should be prengnant!! It's so depressing. So now I have to put my gym action back into effect. What's 1/2 hour out of my day?? It's good for my body and it'll give me more energy. Energy is something I've seriously been lacking lately. I remember a couple months ago I had tons of energy and didn't need nearly as much sleep as I seem to be needing now. I just need to buckle down and go. IN FACT, after I write this journal I'm going to go pack my gym bag so that I can go tomorrow. I don't want to end up looking like a hugely morbidly obese cow!! :(

Hmm...what else? Well, I have lots of reading and papers and observations and junk to do so staying busy *shouldn't* be a problem. Though I find that I really don't want to sit down and read what I'm supposed to so I'm not sure it helps keep my mind off food and on other things. I love to eat, god help me. If the world were made of fish and really really really! spicy things, I'd never eat. But it's not...it's filled with all sorts of delightful things. I'm SO FAT!! :(