Damnit

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I'm here with Mo drinking orange soda and being pissed off because I wrote a hella long entry and it got deleted. So yea. I'm finally off restrictions so I'm pretty happy today. It's an awesome day. Arjhay asked if he could kiss me and I didn't know what to say so I just said, "no, that's alright" and turned on my head phones. For some reason everyones talking to me and sitting by me and giving me shit today and I don't know what but I feel really loved even though i kno I'm probably not. I love Shane. He is so awesome. He sings and plays guitar and listens to cool music like me. I get to see him soon and I'm excited. He bought me a strawberry sunday and got jealous when I went out with his older brother. I'm wearing the bracelet Mike D. gave me but my mom says I have to give it back because he needs it. I had a dream about Mike last night that i can't really write in here but all I'll say is that it made me sad that him and Richard called me a tease and I wanted to show them that I wasn't a tease so I had a party at my house and dumb shyt happened. I don't know what my problem is but I think too much lately. I just need to chill. I miss Richard a lot. It's really sad. I wish he would come visit or something. It's sad that he's making new friends in Reno and forgetting about his homie Ellis. Anyways...he was one of my best friends and he's gone so it's sad. Ben has been in the mix again lately and I don't know why. I actually might see him this weekend so we'll see. I still don't know what terms we're on but I hope that we can at least be friends considering the dumb shit we had to go through. We used to talk for like 5 hours in the middle of the night and I thought I really liked him. I guess no one really knows about me and Ben. I thought I understood but I guess not. I didn't like him. Not until way after the Durango incident. He used to be sad cause he knew I didn't like him like that, and then as soon as i started to like him we had to stop talking. Oh well. I like Shane now and I have a boyfriend so i don't know why i care so much. Sorry i talk too damn much. I need coffee. I wish i was wearing my red tube top today. Its a cool day and I feel like looking cool. Me and Mo are gunna have a "we" day today and if you don't understand our language, it means that we're leaving and not telling anyone where we're going so we can sit and talk about everything. Thanks for reading all my bullshit. Sorry i bored you so much. I hope you're life is good today. Peace homies.

ashleigh

I dont wanna go to school
i dont need no education
i dont wanna be like you
i dont wanna save the nation
i just wanna live my life
every day a celebration
one day imma leave this world
waiting for the revalation