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if it wasn't abundantly obvious to me before, it is now. without a drastic, dare I say, miraculous intervention into my brothers life, he will be dead very soon. if i'm sure of nothing else in life, i'm sure of this. he told me he loved me tonight, for the first time since i was little. he was drunk. probably high. who knows if he even meant it. but i can't help feeling like it's the last time i'll hear him say it. i hope i'm wrong.