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You kno ppl piss me off sometimes.... have u ever had to people who mean so much to u and u dout they feel the same....but sometimes they are a huge part of the only reason u stayed alive at some point in your life....altho they arent ur 'best friend' they mean the world..... alot of people can relate bcuz it is a guy they have liked in the past ( i kno juss how u feel.... ) u get major attachment and then u realize it juss aint gon happen....so u juss say what the hell ill be friends and that all u r....yet theres this feeling inside u forever about how wonderful they are..... i wish people would take a minute to step back and see its not always about them....and if they actualy thought about how other people felt maybe they wouldnt be so rude and unfair.... in my situtation....2 of my guy 'friends' are fighting....they used to be really close....well i try to help things out and fix it a lil well one likes that the other dosent.... having had feelings for both of them in the past its hard to side....so i juss dont i try to help for the well-being of both sides.....ya like that ever works.....so today i find out one of the guys is mad at me....and everyone is like he'll prolly be mad for a really long time....and im like ok y? and they are all like well he is really up tight about that kind of stuff and dont try to help its his fight let him fight it....so im like wtf am i supposed to do i love them both so much yet they juss dont see it....and of course everyone but me is taking sides so i feel like the odd ball which isnt new but still its not a great feeling....so u kno i apoligize and i think he excepted it but idk bcuz guys are REALLY bad with feelings so i dont know and im afraid to bring it up.... i mean last night i was online until 2 am tryin to fix this shit....and i was almost in tears the whole time cuz there both f this and f that the whole time and i didnt know wat to do.....but then today....like every other day.....everyone decides to get into my love life..... bcuz they dont get n e they have to talk about mine...... bcuz ive kissed and done a lil more then kiss with 7 guys they freak out.... im like u kno wat stfu! its gettin really old and i sit there and tell them to stop but they dont and then i get mad and say stop and they still dont .... and then they get mad at me for gettin upset..... its like i have every rite in the world to get pissed off..... and not only that if they do kno wat happened they dont even bother to tell everyone the truth.... it cracks me up u could have someone in the room with u while u kiss a guy ( im talking a really good friend in the room ) and then if someone else asked what happened 9 times out of 10 they would say oh the had sex oh they did this of they did that..... its like NO WE DIDNT! but u kno no one can tell the truth bcuz it dosent start rumors or creat contriversy! i mean if ur telling the truth and things start circulating fine....but if its a lie to begin with comeon no kids grow up were not in Elem. school n e more..... i mean i kno ppl that go around and blab everything that has happened to them with a guy.... oh i made out with a 19 yr old woop dee do im sure that person dosent want u spreading that around! but on top of all that stuff u kno wat really makes me mad? FAKE PEOPLE! people who say things like oh i dont care what people think about me or the way i look..... yet they always have to be the center of attention and they spend 3 hours gettin ready to go somewhere where there just going to get all gross and nasty n e way..... or people that go to a tanning bed b4 they go to a punk concert ok A. 'Punks' dont give if ur tan or not and B. ITS DARK COMEON SHERLOCK! THERE NOT GANNA BE ABLE TO TELL! DUH! well im out im sick of this and im ganna go talk to my best friend molly.....she makes everything ok lol! bye!