Im growing up are you?
I want to meet someone with as much time as I have, preferably someone with a talent that I understand and can help me to relate the beauty inside that I don't always feel. I have always thought of myself as little to no maintenance, but recently, I have discovered that I am, or want to be of, equal maintenance, that doesn't mean I will hold you to clocking in or out everyday, but rather that I will give you the attention you give me. I am not going to say that I want to "fall in love" because that is so cliché but rather I want to feel, I want to hurt, I want the burn in my chest when I am not with that person, because that's what love is. I don't want a live in boyfriend yet, I need my space I need time, and I need to feel it first, because I refuse to sacrifice the rest of my life for a timeshare. Love is selfless, understanding, certain, and consoling, I hate dating because I believe myself to be an extremist I either want to feel something or nothing, I hate the middle ground, I hate not knowing, I hate it not feeling right, I hate questioning myself, and I don't like to just get by, I either go big or I go home. I am really easy to get along with, if you like adventure and anything spontaneous and always know that my iPod always rules the mood. I rarely let people step over my boundaries, but when I let them in I am very easily hurt and discouraged. I don't want drama, I despise it due to insomnia and anxiety, I won't start it and I won't keep it going, but you will hear my side of it before I quit. I am a poker and a puncher for fun but hold my hand when I get angry, but if I have warned you to get out of my face I will put you in your place with no hesitation, and if I love you I will cry about it and then apologize if I feel I have been in error. If I'm not wrong and we agree to disagree, then I will let it rest and move on or choose to not associate with that person and never bring it up again. Should that happen I would never be rude to you or deface you or call you out. I love people watching; sometimes I laugh at them sometimes I admire them. I believe there are good people out there I just wonder where they are all hiding. I have a close circle of friends that I consider my family and I would do anything for them and usually do. I have a hard time denying myself something if I can't do it with my friends thus I always make the adventure happen if I can. I am an honest, caring person. I am extremely content with the person I have become from the childhood that I received. I think I am intelligent; I have a way with words and spent my teen years on a emotional rollercoaster with boys, romance, school family and friends. I have grown up and im a young women.. soon to be leaving her teens.