its my turn to say dammit, dammit!
i'd forgotten i had this.
the emo kid's security blanket. i always seem to find my way back. when there is no one real to listen. because there are things I am too proud, too stubborn (too afraid) to say out outloud.
i refuse to be depressed. i refuse to be in love (with anyone who cares so little. with anyone at all.) i refuse to let life pass me by. somewhere, somethings got to give.
maybe it already has.
fuck! i think im lost, or in hibernation. maybe in an existential coma. whatever it is, i dont like it. i just dont know what to do about it. which is the real bitch of the whole thing. i cant just stagnate like this till fall. fuckshitballs.
god it feels good to bitch to emptyness. lets hear it for the internet age, giving me the tinest outlet for my otherwise repressed bullshit.
i wish the morose star wouldnt fucking cry. an emoticon should not be allowed to make me feel pathetic.
the emo kid's security blanket. i always seem to find my way back. when there is no one real to listen. because there are things I am too proud, too stubborn (too afraid) to say out outloud.
i refuse to be depressed. i refuse to be in love (with anyone who cares so little. with anyone at all.) i refuse to let life pass me by. somewhere, somethings got to give.
maybe it already has.
fuck! i think im lost, or in hibernation. maybe in an existential coma. whatever it is, i dont like it. i just dont know what to do about it. which is the real bitch of the whole thing. i cant just stagnate like this till fall. fuckshitballs.
god it feels good to bitch to emptyness. lets hear it for the internet age, giving me the tinest outlet for my otherwise repressed bullshit.
i wish the morose star wouldnt fucking cry. an emoticon should not be allowed to make me feel pathetic.