i wish i knew what is going to happen next...
i've been thinking a lot laltye about college and shit... i'm scared as fuck for next year to roll around... i hate change and htast the number 1 thing thats going to happen... CHANGE, and lots of it... all of my friends are leaving me to go to their cool new 4 year schools and shit... and here i will be stuck in OP for the rest of my life... i know that all my firneds will be an e-mail or a call away but its not he same... i'm used to seeing them everyday and going from everyda to not at all is going to be wierd as fuck!!!
i'm scared as fuck for next year... i hanvt made friends in like 5 years i think iu frogot how... my mom sid that i woudl have no proplem with making friends bc i'm so outgoing and loud ( i didnt know if she meant that as a compliment or a diss lol) but i really am afraid of wats going to happen to us, to everyone, to me... i'm afraid taht i'm going to lose all contact with my best friend... i mean i already feel like i have, i bearly know anything about her ne more and it sux... we used to be the most incredible duo that has ever walked this earth,... when we where together we wer loud, sexxy, and not afraid to do anything... i miss those days mor ethen anything... iw oudl enver have to worry about my weekends b/c i knew that i woudl be with her... and now i',m never with her... i understand why we dont hang out as much dont get me wrong at all, i completly get it... i'm jsut so sad andi miss her more then ne thing... a part of me is scared bc if we wont be able to get over this milestone how will be able to get throgh college... i hope that everythign will sonner or later get better i jsut miss my old life and what it used ot be... now dont get me wrong i'm happy were i am now libing with amber and becoming better friends with her, i jsut miss everything that i used to have.
i hate chnage more then anythign and it seems ,that latley thats all thas been accuring... nothing but change, everything and everyone is changing... i dont ahe friendships i used to have, i'm not as good friends with ppl i used to be with.. but i also have made new ones... i just wish that i could go back to 10th grade... for sum reason 10th to 11th grade was the best years of my life... i would do anythig for those days again... but i guess ic ant so i might as well get off my ass and stop mopping around... its jstu hard when u dont have ne one to lift you up =,(
i'm scared as fuck for next year... i hanvt made friends in like 5 years i think iu frogot how... my mom sid that i woudl have no proplem with making friends bc i'm so outgoing and loud ( i didnt know if she meant that as a compliment or a diss lol) but i really am afraid of wats going to happen to us, to everyone, to me... i'm afraid taht i'm going to lose all contact with my best friend... i mean i already feel like i have, i bearly know anything about her ne more and it sux... we used to be the most incredible duo that has ever walked this earth,... when we where together we wer loud, sexxy, and not afraid to do anything... i miss those days mor ethen anything... iw oudl enver have to worry about my weekends b/c i knew that i woudl be with her... and now i',m never with her... i understand why we dont hang out as much dont get me wrong at all, i completly get it... i'm jsut so sad andi miss her more then ne thing... a part of me is scared bc if we wont be able to get over this milestone how will be able to get throgh college... i hope that everythign will sonner or later get better i jsut miss my old life and what it used ot be... now dont get me wrong i'm happy were i am now libing with amber and becoming better friends with her, i jsut miss everything that i used to have.
i hate chnage more then anythign and it seems ,that latley thats all thas been accuring... nothing but change, everything and everyone is changing... i dont ahe friendships i used to have, i'm not as good friends with ppl i used to be with.. but i also have made new ones... i just wish that i could go back to 10th grade... for sum reason 10th to 11th grade was the best years of my life... i would do anythig for those days again... but i guess ic ant so i might as well get off my ass and stop mopping around... its jstu hard when u dont have ne one to lift you up =,(