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ugh so me and tyler are over... he lied way to much... and its so hard because i truley cared alot about him. and i know i said that abuot alot of my boyfriends in this livejournal. but it is totally different with tyler. he really did mean alot to me. and no one really knows that. it is really hard to deal wif it.. id ont know... i cry still and it hurts. he calls me just to see how i am doing.. "because he cares" well how the hell do i know he isnt lieing about that either... oh i am so tired of hurting i just want the hurt to go away... its so aweful. you get this horrible feeling in your stomache and all you want to do is crawl into a dark corner and cry to yourself. i feel horrible... i feel like i have been lied to about everything in this relationship. nothing was real it was all a front to get some good ass. thats what i really feel like right now. i am NOT going to let myself fall in love again. i have done it once and hurts way way way to bad to let it happen again.... oh i dont know i just want to cry talking about it. but i have no one to really talk to about it. and oh its so hard... i mean he left me a message on my voicemail with a song saying that he would love me and always will. i am just soo confused how can you love someone so much supposedly but watch them hurt ALL THE TIMe. because of something you doo???