maaaan.. this shit just sucks monkey balls.
OMG I HATE DRAMA! SO MUCH!! I MEAN SERIOUSLY ITS LIKE IT FOLLOWS ME. AND I SWEAR ALL THE DRAMA THAT IS GOING ON NOW EITHER HAS TO DO WITH A GUY OR SOMEONE THAT GOES TO INDEPENDENCE GO FIGURE!!!
WELL DAMN THIS SHIT REALLY SUCKS. I AM CRAZY ABOUT TYLER. I DONT KNOW WHAT IT IS ABOUT HIM. I AM JUST SO INFATUATED WITH HIM. I WISH I COULD SPEND EVERY SECOND WITH HIM. I HATE LEAVING HIM FOR WORK. OR WHEN MY MOM SAYS I CANT HANG OUT THAT NIGHT. ITS AWEFUL. AND I DONT KNOW. I REALLY LIKE HIM. AND THINGS JUST HAVENT BEEN THAT GOOD LATELY WITH MY FAMILY. I LOVE THEM ALL BUT I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO. I AM GOING TO BE SCREWED WITH MY GRADES LOL. ITS SUMMER TIME AND I AM STILL STRESSING OUT ABOUT SCHOOL. HOW PATHETIC IS THAT.. GOD I DONT KNOW..
THEN LAST NIGHT WHEN I BROUGHT TYLERS DAD SOME LEFT OVERS FROM WHAT ME AND TYLER HAD HAD I TEXAS ROADHOUSE. TYLERS DAD IS TELLING ME THAT HE IS A PLAYA. AND THAT I BETTER KEEP AN EYE ON HIM. WHICH MAKES THINGS ALL THE WORSE BECAUSE I LIKE TYLER AND I HATE SITTING AROUND WITH KNOTS IN MY STOMACHE WONDERING IF MY BOYFRIEND IS CHEATING ON ME OR NOT. THATS NOT WHAT A RELATIONSHIP IS ALL ABOUT. AND NOW THAT I KNOW THAT ITS JUST UGH MAKES ME MAD BECAUSE I DONTK NOW. LIKE CAMERON SAID THAT TYLER HAS SLOWED DOWN SINCE HE HAS BEEN WITH ME. BUT WHAT DOES THAT MEAN. THAT HE IS STILL DOING IT WHILES HE IS WITH ME. JUST NOT AS BAD. I MEAN I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO. AND I HATE BEING SO NOSY IT BOTHERS THE HELL OUT OF ME. BUT WHEN YOU DONT STRUST THE GUY YOUR WITH YOU CANT HELP IT. LIKE I AM THE TYPE OF GIRL. THAT I DONT CARE WHAT MY BOYFRIEND DOES. I TRUST HIM. THAT HE WONT DO ANYTHING WITH ANOTHER GIRL. HE CAN GO OUT WITH HIS GUYS AS MUCH AS HE CAN. BUT ONCE I LOSE THAT TRUST ITS LIKE WHEN I KNOW HES OUT WITH HIS FRIENDS I DONT KNOW. I CANT TRUST HIM... SO YEAH. I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO. ITS JUST REALLY SHITTY. ERGH I HATE THESE KIND OF SITUATIONS ITS SO FRUSTRATING. AND I DONT KNOW I REALLY LIKE TYLER ALOT BECAUSE I BE MY STUPID SELF AROUND HIM. I CAN ACT LIKE A DORK. I CANT SAY AND DO STUPID SHIT. AND WE BOTH JUST LAUGH AT IT. ITS LIKE I AM NOT ALL UPTIGHT AROUND HIM. WORRIED ABOUT HOW I LOOK OR WHAT HE MEANS WHEN HE SAYS THINGS. I AM JUST LAID BACK. AND I LIKE IT. ITS JUST A I DONT KNOW PERFECT RELATIONSHIP. I MEAN THERES NO SUCH THING AS THAT. BUT THATS HOW I FEEL WHEN I AM WITH HIM. I THINK WE MAKE AN AWESOME COUPLE. AND I REALLY LIKE HIM. AND YOU KNOW I LOVE HOW WHEN I AM DRIVING HE HOLDS MY HAND. AND HE KISSES ME AT STOP LIGHTS. AND HOW HE SAYS THE MOST SWEETEST THINGS TO ME. TELLS ME I AM BEAUTIFUL WHEN HE KNOWS I REALLY LOOK LIKE SHIT. LIKE ITS JUST I DONT KNOW I REALLY LIKE HIM. AND I DONT KNOW. ITS JUST SO CONFUSING BUT GREAT ALL AT THE SAME TIME. HE IS SUCH AN AMAZING PERSON. I AM AFRAID OF LOSING HIM. I HATE DEALING WITH THIS CONFUSING THOUGHTS. I JUST IT ALL TO BE PERFECT. AND I SWEAR AND HOPE THAT WHAT IS GOING ON RIGHT NOW IN MY FAMILY DOES NOT AFFECT MINE AND HIS RELATIONSHIP... BECAUSE GOLLY MOLLY I AM SO GLAD I HAVE HIM. I DEFINITELY NOT GOING TO GET RID OF HIM FOR A WHILE. HE IS STUCK WITH ME. AND ITS JUST AWEFUL HEHE.. BUT YEAH
THEN I DONT KNOW WHAT THE HELL CHARLENES PROBLEM IS RIGHT NOW I THINK SHE IS A TWO FACED BITCH AND I DONT LIKE HER. I THINK SHE WAS TALKING HER SHIT TO JORDAN AND NICK AND TOMMY FOR SHITS AND GIGGLES. AND YOU KNOW WHAT THAT REALLY PISSES ME OFF. BECAUSE I BET THE ONLY REASON WHY SHE DID IT WAS TO GET ATTENTION FROM JORDAN AND JORDAN ISNT EVEN FEELING HER. SO YEAH I THINK THATS SOME FUNNY SHIT RIGHT THERE. LET ME TELL YOU. I DONT KNOW WHAT HER PROBLEM IS BUT I CAN BE JUST AS BIG OF A BITCH. BUT OHWELL. I DONT KNOW. SHE IS PROBABLY PISSED BECAUSE MY MOM SAID SHE WAS GOING TO TAKE MY CAR AWAY FROM ME AND SHE DIDNT I AM STILL ALOUD TO HANG OUT WITH TYLER AND ALL THAT GOOD SHIT. AND SHE IS PROBABLY PISSED AT THAT BUT I REALLY DONT GIVE A DAMN. BUT YEAH... THATS ABOUT ALL THAT IS REALLY GOING ON RIGHT NOW. I DONT KNOW. I AM REALLY FRUSTRATED WITH ALOT OF THINGS. BUT ITS NOTHING THAT I AM GOING TO POST UP ON MY LIVEJOURNAL. I DONT WANT PEOPLE READING THAT LOL...
WELL DAMN THIS SHIT REALLY SUCKS. I AM CRAZY ABOUT TYLER. I DONT KNOW WHAT IT IS ABOUT HIM. I AM JUST SO INFATUATED WITH HIM. I WISH I COULD SPEND EVERY SECOND WITH HIM. I HATE LEAVING HIM FOR WORK. OR WHEN MY MOM SAYS I CANT HANG OUT THAT NIGHT. ITS AWEFUL. AND I DONT KNOW. I REALLY LIKE HIM. AND THINGS JUST HAVENT BEEN THAT GOOD LATELY WITH MY FAMILY. I LOVE THEM ALL BUT I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO. I AM GOING TO BE SCREWED WITH MY GRADES LOL. ITS SUMMER TIME AND I AM STILL STRESSING OUT ABOUT SCHOOL. HOW PATHETIC IS THAT.. GOD I DONT KNOW..
THEN LAST NIGHT WHEN I BROUGHT TYLERS DAD SOME LEFT OVERS FROM WHAT ME AND TYLER HAD HAD I TEXAS ROADHOUSE. TYLERS DAD IS TELLING ME THAT HE IS A PLAYA. AND THAT I BETTER KEEP AN EYE ON HIM. WHICH MAKES THINGS ALL THE WORSE BECAUSE I LIKE TYLER AND I HATE SITTING AROUND WITH KNOTS IN MY STOMACHE WONDERING IF MY BOYFRIEND IS CHEATING ON ME OR NOT. THATS NOT WHAT A RELATIONSHIP IS ALL ABOUT. AND NOW THAT I KNOW THAT ITS JUST UGH MAKES ME MAD BECAUSE I DONTK NOW. LIKE CAMERON SAID THAT TYLER HAS SLOWED DOWN SINCE HE HAS BEEN WITH ME. BUT WHAT DOES THAT MEAN. THAT HE IS STILL DOING IT WHILES HE IS WITH ME. JUST NOT AS BAD. I MEAN I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO. AND I HATE BEING SO NOSY IT BOTHERS THE HELL OUT OF ME. BUT WHEN YOU DONT STRUST THE GUY YOUR WITH YOU CANT HELP IT. LIKE I AM THE TYPE OF GIRL. THAT I DONT CARE WHAT MY BOYFRIEND DOES. I TRUST HIM. THAT HE WONT DO ANYTHING WITH ANOTHER GIRL. HE CAN GO OUT WITH HIS GUYS AS MUCH AS HE CAN. BUT ONCE I LOSE THAT TRUST ITS LIKE WHEN I KNOW HES OUT WITH HIS FRIENDS I DONT KNOW. I CANT TRUST HIM... SO YEAH. I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO. ITS JUST REALLY SHITTY. ERGH I HATE THESE KIND OF SITUATIONS ITS SO FRUSTRATING. AND I DONT KNOW I REALLY LIKE TYLER ALOT BECAUSE I BE MY STUPID SELF AROUND HIM. I CAN ACT LIKE A DORK. I CANT SAY AND DO STUPID SHIT. AND WE BOTH JUST LAUGH AT IT. ITS LIKE I AM NOT ALL UPTIGHT AROUND HIM. WORRIED ABOUT HOW I LOOK OR WHAT HE MEANS WHEN HE SAYS THINGS. I AM JUST LAID BACK. AND I LIKE IT. ITS JUST A I DONT KNOW PERFECT RELATIONSHIP. I MEAN THERES NO SUCH THING AS THAT. BUT THATS HOW I FEEL WHEN I AM WITH HIM. I THINK WE MAKE AN AWESOME COUPLE. AND I REALLY LIKE HIM. AND YOU KNOW I LOVE HOW WHEN I AM DRIVING HE HOLDS MY HAND. AND HE KISSES ME AT STOP LIGHTS. AND HOW HE SAYS THE MOST SWEETEST THINGS TO ME. TELLS ME I AM BEAUTIFUL WHEN HE KNOWS I REALLY LOOK LIKE SHIT. LIKE ITS JUST I DONT KNOW I REALLY LIKE HIM. AND I DONT KNOW. ITS JUST SO CONFUSING BUT GREAT ALL AT THE SAME TIME. HE IS SUCH AN AMAZING PERSON. I AM AFRAID OF LOSING HIM. I HATE DEALING WITH THIS CONFUSING THOUGHTS. I JUST IT ALL TO BE PERFECT. AND I SWEAR AND HOPE THAT WHAT IS GOING ON RIGHT NOW IN MY FAMILY DOES NOT AFFECT MINE AND HIS RELATIONSHIP... BECAUSE GOLLY MOLLY I AM SO GLAD I HAVE HIM. I DEFINITELY NOT GOING TO GET RID OF HIM FOR A WHILE. HE IS STUCK WITH ME. AND ITS JUST AWEFUL HEHE.. BUT YEAH
THEN I DONT KNOW WHAT THE HELL CHARLENES PROBLEM IS RIGHT NOW I THINK SHE IS A TWO FACED BITCH AND I DONT LIKE HER. I THINK SHE WAS TALKING HER SHIT TO JORDAN AND NICK AND TOMMY FOR SHITS AND GIGGLES. AND YOU KNOW WHAT THAT REALLY PISSES ME OFF. BECAUSE I BET THE ONLY REASON WHY SHE DID IT WAS TO GET ATTENTION FROM JORDAN AND JORDAN ISNT EVEN FEELING HER. SO YEAH I THINK THATS SOME FUNNY SHIT RIGHT THERE. LET ME TELL YOU. I DONT KNOW WHAT HER PROBLEM IS BUT I CAN BE JUST AS BIG OF A BITCH. BUT OHWELL. I DONT KNOW. SHE IS PROBABLY PISSED BECAUSE MY MOM SAID SHE WAS GOING TO TAKE MY CAR AWAY FROM ME AND SHE DIDNT I AM STILL ALOUD TO HANG OUT WITH TYLER AND ALL THAT GOOD SHIT. AND SHE IS PROBABLY PISSED AT THAT BUT I REALLY DONT GIVE A DAMN. BUT YEAH... THATS ABOUT ALL THAT IS REALLY GOING ON RIGHT NOW. I DONT KNOW. I AM REALLY FRUSTRATED WITH ALOT OF THINGS. BUT ITS NOTHING THAT I AM GOING TO POST UP ON MY LIVEJOURNAL. I DONT WANT PEOPLE READING THAT LOL...