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when the world gets turned upside down for petty reasons, its nice to know that pizza and pretending to close th box can make you happy. but now why does it feel like all my friends are strangers? im lonely in good company yet completely despondent to the opportunity at hand. im tired of waiting, tired of putting in the effort. im selfish, needy, overbearing, rude, seclusive, moody, and negative. and yet ladies and gentlemen i still pray every night that you'll love me, and hope that one day perfection wont seem so unobtainable.i feel too complicated to enjoy my own company. i miss feeling like a part of something important. the problem with liking everyone is finding that the commitment exceeds the opportunities for friendship. "What does it feel like to be the most beautiful girl in this room?"