I always let my guard down.
I don't want the ability to care anymore. It almost always happens instantly. There will be one defining moment where I care so much that it almost kills me. Can I sell my soul to the devil? I really think it will be best for me and my future. Because I can't care anymore, it kills me everytime i'm let down. I'm always let down.
It's so easy for people to say I care about you too, but why is it so hard for them to actually mean it? It's so easy for anyone to say one thing to make a person smile for that moment but it's even easier for them to turn their back on you. Words come so easy to some people, but it isn't as easy for the person that has to think and think and think and think about it to pick up the pieces.
Can my life start now? I'm ready for it to start. Because all it has been so far is nonsense. It's all meant so much to me, but it's meant shit for everyone who was in it.
It's so easy for people to say I care about you too, but why is it so hard for them to actually mean it? It's so easy for anyone to say one thing to make a person smile for that moment but it's even easier for them to turn their back on you. Words come so easy to some people, but it isn't as easy for the person that has to think and think and think and think about it to pick up the pieces.
Can my life start now? I'm ready for it to start. Because all it has been so far is nonsense. It's all meant so much to me, but it's meant shit for everyone who was in it.