FUck this school is boring!
Let me just say that college life is not what it is cracked up to be! very rarly am i having any fun. And i may be parinod but i try to make friends but no one talks to me. and when i try to talk they give me dirty looks. the nice people so far on campus are the people i can not understand half the time, are the asian excahnge students at least they offer when in the room if i would like to partcipat, but the flaw when together they speak no english! BUt yes i did yell at a fat chick and she deserved it ,fucking fat bitch, emily rose moive was good pretty freaky scenes. And school fuck this shit i mean frigin god do not make us be more well rounded if all the teachers do not frigin realize that we have more than there class. I mean 4 difrent books to read a chapter out of each of 100 or more pages of shit i could care less about. And what i do not understand about some majors is that you can have to many credits to get in is a bunch of bull shit, "well see you are 4 credits over so you can not be in this major jimmy" I mean fucking hell then do not make me learn about other cultures, i mean if i wanted to know about them and the plight they went throuhg then i would have that as my major. I think i am slowly going more insane as the days go by no one to really talk to. I hate know that my familys life is going on with out me and i learn about stuff late. I HATE SCHOOL,and so help me god if i do not become a frigin vet then I am going to kill this waste of fucking four years of my life. I have been thinking of my alternatives if i do not get in because every person who has held a fucking dog wants to be a vet, but my alternative are farmer of some type, or i am just gonna fucking become a preist, I mean i will be giving up having two sons but ohh well at least i know that will not be to hard, i mean i just recite the same thing year after year and be godly afraid of little boys. I HATE SCHOOL, I am frigin misralble. I think my parents lied to me my whole life they tell me i am hansome and they tell me that i am talented and that i can do anything i want to, LIES if I am so frigin hansome then where are the women and y do they not notice me, i mean i go out of my way to look presentable and smell nice i even went though gruling 5 years with braces to inprove my chances, but guess where that got me I just turn out to be girls secrets. And for another women stop fucking yelling at me, i am just asking a simple question i do not need to be yelled at for a simple question. I may just turn into a jerk i mean look what it has got my brother. friends, sex with girls and my family fighting over him. you know what my dad never applogized for saying that he wanted out of the house the first time. but my brother can just say fuck you to him and he been trying to get him back ever since. And it is about time my family reconigsed me for what i have done for them. I raised my brother, i protected my sister so she did not have to go through what i did. but they can make fun of me and eaisly dispach me fine and say you know that we love you to try and cover up what they did. IT STILL FUCKING HURTS. but i digress i hate school. My dad told me that to be great at something you need to suffer alittle. well i have no idea what i am gonna be great at but in every frigin catogory I have sufferd. And yes i aknowledge that other people suffer and theres is much worse than mine but come on people there is some one who is always worse then the next person so feeling sorry for oneself is a little manditory in living. And i know i am blessed for being a middle class white american male. God this caffine has got me going. note to self not so much caffine next time. But yes and i miss my friends alot.