happy birthday jerry! (garcia)
i've spent the past day in such emotional termoil....
im pretty sure that my "i hate junkies" phase has to come to an end. either that or im a hypocrite. (that might be fun..who knows)...
genia got into town yesterday and i saw her. it's been nine years since i have and god, it broke my heart. she looks so bad. so so so bad.
after a lot of soul searching, talking and thinking..she's headed back to missouri tomorrow to get some help and to stay with her mom and stepfather.
i love her so much..and i hope and i pray that she gets the help that she needs. i hope that she does it for herself and for her kids (who are so stinking cute. expecially Katina..her youngest daughter). I hope she stays away from her worthless brother Toby (i already told Genia if he gives her a hard time or does anything to keep her from getting the help that she needs, i will go down there and personally KILL HIM. funny...when we were growing up i had the biggest crush on him. at her wedding we danced the whole time and everyone kept telling me that if we were to hook up that genia, paula, stef and i would really be sisters)....
i made her a promise...and she made me one. she promised me she would get better and file for divorce.
i promised her that if she did, alexis and i would go down to missouri in a year to visit.
i came home and promised alexis i would never get involved with a guy who didnt value both her and i. that i would never become a junkie or an alcoholic.
this morning i text msged steve and told him i was done. (he did reply and say he wasnt happy about that. i told him we could be friends right now and if he could ever manage to pull his head out of his ass, we would see).
it breaks my heart....my sister went through so much of this. and now genia is too. (with out the child abuse)...
so unfair.
im pretty sure that my "i hate junkies" phase has to come to an end. either that or im a hypocrite. (that might be fun..who knows)...
genia got into town yesterday and i saw her. it's been nine years since i have and god, it broke my heart. she looks so bad. so so so bad.
after a lot of soul searching, talking and thinking..she's headed back to missouri tomorrow to get some help and to stay with her mom and stepfather.
i love her so much..and i hope and i pray that she gets the help that she needs. i hope that she does it for herself and for her kids (who are so stinking cute. expecially Katina..her youngest daughter). I hope she stays away from her worthless brother Toby (i already told Genia if he gives her a hard time or does anything to keep her from getting the help that she needs, i will go down there and personally KILL HIM. funny...when we were growing up i had the biggest crush on him. at her wedding we danced the whole time and everyone kept telling me that if we were to hook up that genia, paula, stef and i would really be sisters)....
i made her a promise...and she made me one. she promised me she would get better and file for divorce.
i promised her that if she did, alexis and i would go down to missouri in a year to visit.
i came home and promised alexis i would never get involved with a guy who didnt value both her and i. that i would never become a junkie or an alcoholic.
this morning i text msged steve and told him i was done. (he did reply and say he wasnt happy about that. i told him we could be friends right now and if he could ever manage to pull his head out of his ass, we would see).
it breaks my heart....my sister went through so much of this. and now genia is too. (with out the child abuse)...
so unfair.