california dreamin...
my old journalism teacher from high school just called me. it's funny. in high school, i hated her. made fun of her (along with marissa. god we were such bitches). 9 years out of hs...i love the lady. she's been there for me when i needed support..always cheering me on. telling me that i can do it...that im strong.
out of desperation...a few weeks before alexis was born, i emailed her. i was so confused, sad and i didnt want to turn to my friends or family. was afraid of what they would say when i told them "i dont think i can go through with an adoption". she emailed me back and told me it'd be ok. no matter what.
it's so nice having all these people in my life telling me that i'm going to be ok. that im gunna be a good mom. i look over at alexis and she's sleepin peacefully. the only thing i want is to make her happy and to raise her with love...make sure she is a good person and has the best possible life ever. everything else doesnt really matter anymore.
funny how quickly your priorities in life can change.
it's been three years since i started this lovely journal. i am so glad im not the same person i was back then. i am so much better. SO MUCH! and it makes me smile. my life is so different...i wouldnt change a damn thing.
the home care nurse came out and weighed alexis. she's p to 7 lbs 3oz! lil piggy. so healthy though. that makes me smile.
steve said he was going to stop by after work and see us. i hope he does.
the baby likes tom petty! good girl....
out of desperation...a few weeks before alexis was born, i emailed her. i was so confused, sad and i didnt want to turn to my friends or family. was afraid of what they would say when i told them "i dont think i can go through with an adoption". she emailed me back and told me it'd be ok. no matter what.
it's so nice having all these people in my life telling me that i'm going to be ok. that im gunna be a good mom. i look over at alexis and she's sleepin peacefully. the only thing i want is to make her happy and to raise her with love...make sure she is a good person and has the best possible life ever. everything else doesnt really matter anymore.
funny how quickly your priorities in life can change.
it's been three years since i started this lovely journal. i am so glad im not the same person i was back then. i am so much better. SO MUCH! and it makes me smile. my life is so different...i wouldnt change a damn thing.
the home care nurse came out and weighed alexis. she's p to 7 lbs 3oz! lil piggy. so healthy though. that makes me smile.
steve said he was going to stop by after work and see us. i hope he does.
the baby likes tom petty! good girl....