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So, I'm in a terrible mood. Terrible, terrible. It began many many weeks ago, and progressed steadily. I woke up Friday morning, having gotten 11 hr of sleep, and was in a great mood. It stayed throughout Saturday, Sunday, and yesterday. Then today comes, and for no reason or for many, (it doesn't matter, does it?) I'm in a bad mood. Sure, I went on the playground with my sister and had a nice time. But once again, this pain has come back. And I hate talking about it, or anything, so I don't. And I doubt that I'll ever really stop being an introvert, does that matter? It doesn't matter. I thought that just getting all this sleep was what was helping, but maybe not. What do I do? And to make it even better, it's not all the time. So it's like, "hey I'm happy, oh but now let me kill everyone". And maybe, when I feel kinda happy, maybe I'm not really. What do I do.
And I've gotten back into the whole "alone" thing. Let me explain. I'd rather be alone. A lot of times, I just want to go somewhere, by myself, and just be. Is that wrong? Because really, being with people doesn't seem to help. It does sometimes, but then it goes away. And sure, I love everybody. More than anything. But you know, I really hurt.
And I've gotten back into the whole "alone" thing. Let me explain. I'd rather be alone. A lot of times, I just want to go somewhere, by myself, and just be. Is that wrong? Because really, being with people doesn't seem to help. It does sometimes, but then it goes away. And sure, I love everybody. More than anything. But you know, I really hurt.