if only time could reappear
So. I don't really know what's going on with me. I've been crazy lately. Every other day has been more or less miserable. Thursday was the worst, every little thing went wrong. Sorry, everyone, for being a bitch. Believe me, I've kicked myself hard for everything I've done in the past oh, month or so. It's killer, in the bad sense.
Aside from the mental/ emotional drain, the weekend was ok. Spent friday and saturday nights with Dan, visited the family in Shelby today, and chilled the rest of the time. Slept half the day yesterday. Ate and laughed a lot today. Nice and peaceful.
And I'm thinking, as I complain (which = weak for me), I had said I wouldn't complain. Or maybe I didn't say it aloud. But sometimes i feel the need to explain myself.
And this boy, I'm not over but I'm starting to let go. What's the point, if he won't open up again. Just slammed the door in my face, practically. However easy it was to connect physically, emotionally was another thing. But I was willing to risk it. Was it fear that stopped him? Or was it me? The same thing? I'll try to not avoid him.
Oh well. Anyway. That's my life right now. Besides the fact that everything's beautiful and I've got love bursting from my toes to the ends of my fingers. For what, I don't know.
Aside from the mental/ emotional drain, the weekend was ok. Spent friday and saturday nights with Dan, visited the family in Shelby today, and chilled the rest of the time. Slept half the day yesterday. Ate and laughed a lot today. Nice and peaceful.
And I'm thinking, as I complain (which = weak for me), I had said I wouldn't complain. Or maybe I didn't say it aloud. But sometimes i feel the need to explain myself.
And this boy, I'm not over but I'm starting to let go. What's the point, if he won't open up again. Just slammed the door in my face, practically. However easy it was to connect physically, emotionally was another thing. But I was willing to risk it. Was it fear that stopped him? Or was it me? The same thing? I'll try to not avoid him.
Oh well. Anyway. That's my life right now. Besides the fact that everything's beautiful and I've got love bursting from my toes to the ends of my fingers. For what, I don't know.