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[sew_your_kisses]

so life is taking turns and im not ready for them.
im about to turn 18.
not ready for it.
im starting my senior year.
not ready for it.
im severly broke and need a new job
not ready for it.
i dont have anything planned out,
not ready for anything.

and the fact that he he just confusing
the fuck out of me doesnt help NOT A DAMN THING.

him:brooke asked me the other day if
there was something going on between us.

i didnt answer her.

me:why didnt you answer her?

him:I DIDNT KNOW WHAT TO SAY.

me:well theres nothing between us,
just a friendship.
and that is YOUR choice.
not mine, if i had a choice in it,
we'd be together.
so of all people you should know
how to answer that.

unless you have changed your
thoughts on it all of the sudden?

him:*no response yet.*

im done with boys i think, i dont know.
he wants me to move down there with him.
move down there to no promises,
no for sure thing.
nothing really except a hope and a god damn half,
so is it worth it?

<3

p.s.caitie wants me too call her.

but i hate her right about now.
i dont know if i will.