No, i'm not dead
Another update on me. i'm almost down to the weight i was at about 2 years ago, before i got fat and gross looking......i'm in a new relationship and i'm taking it one step at a time. his name is George, he's 27 and he's sexy as all hell. He's one of the few short-haired dudes i've dated, but i'm happy he has SOME hair i can pull ;-). before our date, i was angry, bitter, hurt because of an ex, but i realized that maybe i was just feeling that way because i felt abandoned, thrown away, i felt like it was a pity-relationship, and that he finally couldn't pity me anymore. whatever. if it was a pity-relationship, maybe it's a good thing it's over. now i can start anew, and see where this one takes me. to those who think i've moved fast, and those who may be bitter towards me, please stop it. if things didn't work out, then they didn't. just move on and find someone that meets your expectations. i got high for the first time in a while and i felt mellow and good. George got the giggles and it was amusing to watch. even more amusing was watching The Wizard Of Oz with the volume off. i knew all the lines and so did everyone else. hehe. i miss George, but hope to be seeing him soon. We have to watch the new Death Note dvd i got. it's the movie, not the series. ryuk looks amazing in real time, at least on the box he does. hopefully i'm getting a new computer for less than 200 bucks, so i'll hopefully be updating this thing more often. overall this xmas has been okay, except some stupid spanish bitch robbed my mom at the store last night. the holidays bring out the assholes i guess.......i didn't really ask for much anyhow. i don't really need much these days. just the essentials like makeup, hair dye and nailpolish, and a computer so i don't have to use my mom's all the damn time.