another heart break
ernie and i broke up. i should have seen it coming. no one ever sticks around long anymore. am i cursed or something? what did i do to deserve so many heartaches? i can't take this shit anymore. i really don't think i can. all i want is a guy who accepts me for who i am, for what i am. i always tell those i date what i'm all about beforehand and they CLAIM they understand and accept it, only to do a 180 on me and leave me because of those issues. IF YOU CAN'T FUCKING HANDLE ME THEN DON'T FUCKING DATE ME! i'm sick of getting hurt like this. i've done NOTHING to bring this upon myself. NOTHING! i know i'm a loser, a pathetic loser, but does that mean i don't deserve happiness? that i don't deserve to be loved? to have someone who makes me whole? this isn't fair. none of this is fair. here i am suffering while he is out having a fucking blast, acting as if i never existed in his life, as if we never were together. he wants to be friends, but i don't know if i'm ready to accept that right now. he's broken my heart and it seems like out of the both of us, i'm the only one who is taking it this hard.