Well, I'm back.
And the trip was fantastic. Truly, it was. I got to see many of the people I hold dear, I got to let my hair down and party a little bit. I got to game. I got to be in Albuquerque...
Yet, still, I'm fighting the down swing. There is no reason whatsoever that I should be working this hard not to be unhappy, and yet I am. Which just illustrates something that Brandon and I were talking about awhile back. It doesn't matter who you are or where you are or what you're doing. You are you, there, doing that, and that is what you must deal with. So it does me no real good to think "oh, I'll finally be happy when I get to go visit Albuquerque next week" because all of that is contained within myself. Or something like that. He put it better, but then, he's a Buddhist.
Yet, still, I'm fighting the down swing. There is no reason whatsoever that I should be working this hard not to be unhappy, and yet I am. Which just illustrates something that Brandon and I were talking about awhile back. It doesn't matter who you are or where you are or what you're doing. You are you, there, doing that, and that is what you must deal with. So it does me no real good to think "oh, I'll finally be happy when I get to go visit Albuquerque next week" because all of that is contained within myself. Or something like that. He put it better, but then, he's a Buddhist.