ask me what im thinking. this is what i would say to you.
i wish the sun would always stay
maybe i shouldnt be doing this... or thinking these thoughts.. cus ill get stuck here. once again. oh great... too late now. here i go.. why wont you run to me? maybe i should stop now. why am i putting myself through this? so many questions. with no fucking answers. i wish i had your arms around me to make it better. i need you now. but ill keep quiet. i can handle this. i can do this. im not alone. keep quiet. you can handle this. its just another one of those nights. just wait it out. but theres a lump in my throat. and things going on. that no one knows. never will they know. the truth behind these lies, the truth behind these cries. they dont know. they wont know. grow up, kid. whats wrong with me? shouldnt i have these answers? why dont i even know? so many fucking questions she cries. this life is perfect. from begining to end. stop letting your mind take over. remember to breathe. they all know. its perfect. be grateful. dont do this to yourself. you have so much. stop saying i so much. use them and they. dont live for yourself. fireworks overhead, booming in the ears. what can get more perfect? just to have you by my side. but youre here, oh youre here. love is so much better now, with two. just keep reminding me, you wont ever go. youll be here. just keep reminding me. remind me the truth she says. stop saying this. cus it could be. anything can be true. if you really want it too. go outside. lay under the stars. stare up and wait to wish. just dont look away. why arent you here? why am i alone. im not alone. remind me. im not alone. staring up at this. reminds me. how lucky you can be. so small and unique. everyone. how can they be so different? do you think like me? do you wish like me? i want you now. to wish with me. and not be able to think of a thing. all your wishes can be true. just remember. anything can be. just hide out for one night. you can handle this. just remember im here. i wont go. even if you do. ill still be waiting. and stuck alone. stop thinking like that. look at that sky. why is it so beautful? its too big to be true. maybe with you. where are you. be by my side. always you are. just breathe. go to sleep. stop using i. life isnt for yourself. my thoughts to this keyboard. dont seem much like thoughts. but these thoughts could go on forever. remember. beauty is deeper than you think . b e a u t y . itch your thoughts away. stop thinking of your past she reminds. stop this now. get out while you can. live for today, forget yesterday. now that i have today, im fine. my past is gone.. your past is gone. why does it keep coming up? those pictures. those pictures on the walls. thats what it is. tear down yesterday. and build a new today. yesterday is gone. tear that down. its not needed now, unless its still on your mind? oh remind me . im the only one. remind me forever. cus things can so easily be forgotten. but these things, wont be believed without your assurance. so tear down yesterday. and live for today. scream out loud. stop being so quiet. stop being such a hypocrite she screams. who said keep quiet. this screaming in my head. is reminding me. stop keeping these thoughts to yourself. write them down, share them. maybe someone will care. even if they dont. at least you wont forget. cus thoughts can mean so much. so easily forgotten. wheres the show? that will take my mind away. it seems, thats my freedom. just being another. in the crowd. just one face, no one will even notice. knowing no one. except for you.. youre up there screaming your heart out to so many. so many you dont even know. that takes guts. and it frees me. and makes me fall in love. love to the music. i wont forget. the hurt in your eyes. i dont know you. but i know your secrets. you dont know me. but i know whats on your mind. scream your heart out. dont stop. ill always be there to listen. reassurance. thats all you need. you can never get enough. enough of you. it takes all my worries. and throws them away. your screams. i just know. youre screaming for me. no need for my screams. i can just stand there. and rock away my problems. you take them. and sweat them down your neck. you take them . and throw them on the walls. you leave my ears ringing while they sleep. you leave my knees weak and legs tired. you leave a smile on my face. you leave me with the one i need. you take so much away from me. but leave what i need. change of thought. i dont mean to do this. i just mean to mean. all to you. i want to be your everything. ijsut want to be yours. i want you to see me. the way i s ee you. i want you to understand. how i love you. i wish you could just rip open my chest and take my heart. and look deep inside. and see examine yourself. as you look in a mirror. the mirror of my heart. and love so much. so much it brings tears to your eyes. i know what you mean. i know what you mean to me. just dont go. i dont want you to think i hold back. i dont want you to hold back. just let it all out. ill always be here. ill keep reminding you. just know. i want the truth. i want it all. i want to hear what you have to say. i want to hear you have to think. i want your heart to be poured on me. i want to see it all. i want it to keep me up at night. i can take a magnifying glass to it. the ones you take. i want to see every inch of this. i want to be yours. i want you to be mine. your mine. im yours. my wish is true. where are you? i cant believe i just got all my thoughts out. i cant do that. this is such a first. i can be open. like ive said . it just takes time. i can do this. i did this. and with time. youll understand. whats on my mind. ill be able to do what you want. ill tell you every secret. the deepest ones i was afraid to tell myself. ill be able to tell you.. and know youll understand. but with all of this, it just needs time. everything, just takes some time. and these tears have gone to smiles. with just these thoughts. and now you understand. where that lump in my throat went. it got swallowed and i coughed up all my thoughts. and all those words that were smashed in that ball. have been thought out. and understood. understand me she screams. just lay in silence. and know my every thought. know me better than i know myself. remind me this isnt just a summer love. remind me. and ill remind you. how much i love you. you have me, all of me. now just handle with care. these scars have been healed. but can easily be opened.
i cant believe i got all of that out.
maybe i shouldnt be doing this... or thinking these thoughts.. cus ill get stuck here. once again. oh great... too late now. here i go.. why wont you run to me? maybe i should stop now. why am i putting myself through this? so many questions. with no fucking answers. i wish i had your arms around me to make it better. i need you now. but ill keep quiet. i can handle this. i can do this. im not alone. keep quiet. you can handle this. its just another one of those nights. just wait it out. but theres a lump in my throat. and things going on. that no one knows. never will they know. the truth behind these lies, the truth behind these cries. they dont know. they wont know. grow up, kid. whats wrong with me? shouldnt i have these answers? why dont i even know? so many fucking questions she cries. this life is perfect. from begining to end. stop letting your mind take over. remember to breathe. they all know. its perfect. be grateful. dont do this to yourself. you have so much. stop saying i so much. use them and they. dont live for yourself. fireworks overhead, booming in the ears. what can get more perfect? just to have you by my side. but youre here, oh youre here. love is so much better now, with two. just keep reminding me, you wont ever go. youll be here. just keep reminding me. remind me the truth she says. stop saying this. cus it could be. anything can be true. if you really want it too. go outside. lay under the stars. stare up and wait to wish. just dont look away. why arent you here? why am i alone. im not alone. remind me. im not alone. staring up at this. reminds me. how lucky you can be. so small and unique. everyone. how can they be so different? do you think like me? do you wish like me? i want you now. to wish with me. and not be able to think of a thing. all your wishes can be true. just remember. anything can be. just hide out for one night. you can handle this. just remember im here. i wont go. even if you do. ill still be waiting. and stuck alone. stop thinking like that. look at that sky. why is it so beautful? its too big to be true. maybe with you. where are you. be by my side. always you are. just breathe. go to sleep. stop using i. life isnt for yourself. my thoughts to this keyboard. dont seem much like thoughts. but these thoughts could go on forever. remember. beauty is deeper than you think . b e a u t y . itch your thoughts away. stop thinking of your past she reminds. stop this now. get out while you can. live for today, forget yesterday. now that i have today, im fine. my past is gone.. your past is gone. why does it keep coming up? those pictures. those pictures on the walls. thats what it is. tear down yesterday. and build a new today. yesterday is gone. tear that down. its not needed now, unless its still on your mind? oh remind me . im the only one. remind me forever. cus things can so easily be forgotten. but these things, wont be believed without your assurance. so tear down yesterday. and live for today. scream out loud. stop being so quiet. stop being such a hypocrite she screams. who said keep quiet. this screaming in my head. is reminding me. stop keeping these thoughts to yourself. write them down, share them. maybe someone will care. even if they dont. at least you wont forget. cus thoughts can mean so much. so easily forgotten. wheres the show? that will take my mind away. it seems, thats my freedom. just being another. in the crowd. just one face, no one will even notice. knowing no one. except for you.. youre up there screaming your heart out to so many. so many you dont even know. that takes guts. and it frees me. and makes me fall in love. love to the music. i wont forget. the hurt in your eyes. i dont know you. but i know your secrets. you dont know me. but i know whats on your mind. scream your heart out. dont stop. ill always be there to listen. reassurance. thats all you need. you can never get enough. enough of you. it takes all my worries. and throws them away. your screams. i just know. youre screaming for me. no need for my screams. i can just stand there. and rock away my problems. you take them. and sweat them down your neck. you take them . and throw them on the walls. you leave my ears ringing while they sleep. you leave my knees weak and legs tired. you leave a smile on my face. you leave me with the one i need. you take so much away from me. but leave what i need. change of thought. i dont mean to do this. i just mean to mean. all to you. i want to be your everything. ijsut want to be yours. i want you to see me. the way i s ee you. i want you to understand. how i love you. i wish you could just rip open my chest and take my heart. and look deep inside. and see examine yourself. as you look in a mirror. the mirror of my heart. and love so much. so much it brings tears to your eyes. i know what you mean. i know what you mean to me. just dont go. i dont want you to think i hold back. i dont want you to hold back. just let it all out. ill always be here. ill keep reminding you. just know. i want the truth. i want it all. i want to hear what you have to say. i want to hear you have to think. i want your heart to be poured on me. i want to see it all. i want it to keep me up at night. i can take a magnifying glass to it. the ones you take. i want to see every inch of this. i want to be yours. i want you to be mine. your mine. im yours. my wish is true. where are you? i cant believe i just got all my thoughts out. i cant do that. this is such a first. i can be open. like ive said . it just takes time. i can do this. i did this. and with time. youll understand. whats on my mind. ill be able to do what you want. ill tell you every secret. the deepest ones i was afraid to tell myself. ill be able to tell you.. and know youll understand. but with all of this, it just needs time. everything, just takes some time. and these tears have gone to smiles. with just these thoughts. and now you understand. where that lump in my throat went. it got swallowed and i coughed up all my thoughts. and all those words that were smashed in that ball. have been thought out. and understood. understand me she screams. just lay in silence. and know my every thought. know me better than i know myself. remind me this isnt just a summer love. remind me. and ill remind you. how much i love you. you have me, all of me. now just handle with care. these scars have been healed. but can easily be opened.
i cant believe i got all of that out.