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Saw Atonement. Made me feel kinda blah. Bouts issues I have, like, normal ones. Not the silly brain ones
I walked around for a couple hours, just some quality time to clear my head and enjoy whatever pretty things I could find. Well, there wasn't much of both, just a blank slate walking slowly around the lake. It sure is pretty at night. Everything's pretty at night
I guess that's all. At least I'm calm. Too calm
I'm sorry, but I'm not going to be any fun the last few days in the Bay. I've been trying to get out of this low point, but not much is working. Had another intense numbing episode, which is about as best as I could describe it, which later faded and let me live a little again
Someone talked to me today. They told me something I've heard before from all kinds of people in so many different ways
See, now, think of life as a river. Rather than struggling to escape, thrashing about trying to get to a safe spot, some dry ground, just float. When your thrashing about all you can think about is your thrashing, all the raging water your swirling about you and nothing else. Why not just float, calm and at peace. Rather than being blinded by you own attempts to escape, you can stop to look at the clouds, the vast blue, the trees and people along the bank. You can listen the river, and enjoy the feeling of water swirling through your hands
That's the way I'm trying to go
I walked around for a couple hours, just some quality time to clear my head and enjoy whatever pretty things I could find. Well, there wasn't much of both, just a blank slate walking slowly around the lake. It sure is pretty at night. Everything's pretty at night
I guess that's all. At least I'm calm. Too calm
I'm sorry, but I'm not going to be any fun the last few days in the Bay. I've been trying to get out of this low point, but not much is working. Had another intense numbing episode, which is about as best as I could describe it, which later faded and let me live a little again
Someone talked to me today. They told me something I've heard before from all kinds of people in so many different ways
See, now, think of life as a river. Rather than struggling to escape, thrashing about trying to get to a safe spot, some dry ground, just float. When your thrashing about all you can think about is your thrashing, all the raging water your swirling about you and nothing else. Why not just float, calm and at peace. Rather than being blinded by you own attempts to escape, you can stop to look at the clouds, the vast blue, the trees and people along the bank. You can listen the river, and enjoy the feeling of water swirling through your hands
That's the way I'm trying to go