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so normally on christmas eve im pretty depressed.
because there will never ever be 86 people packing into an itty house or a trailer for that matter.
there will never be the opening of presents sitting on my grandpas lap.
there will never be another kids table in the basement.
there will never be any of the things that went along with christmas eve with the feary family(my moms side).
but this year...im not so sad about it.(dont get me wrong i still miss it)
but last night. today. wonderful as of now.
i havent been this happy on christmas eve for a long time.
and it feels so nice.
jess came over today. ah. the works of edgar allen poe. i love it. and playing in the driveway in the freezing cold with butterfly wings on. was the shit.
then krisco and amy(yay) came out. and it was fun. peacoat club
we're having christmas tonight. its not the same but it will do.
<3.
iwishyoucouldseemeondaysliketoday.soyoucouldseethatimnotjustfullofpain.thatistillhavelotsoflaughterandhappinessinme.soyoucouldseethatimok.becauseiamok.andyourewonderfulandamazingandterrificandbeautifuland<3.
eep. merry christmas.
because there will never ever be 86 people packing into an itty house or a trailer for that matter.
there will never be the opening of presents sitting on my grandpas lap.
there will never be another kids table in the basement.
there will never be any of the things that went along with christmas eve with the feary family(my moms side).
but this year...im not so sad about it.(dont get me wrong i still miss it)
but last night. today. wonderful as of now.
i havent been this happy on christmas eve for a long time.
and it feels so nice.
jess came over today. ah. the works of edgar allen poe. i love it. and playing in the driveway in the freezing cold with butterfly wings on. was the shit.
then krisco and amy(yay) came out. and it was fun. peacoat club
we're having christmas tonight. its not the same but it will do.
<3.
iwishyoucouldseemeondaysliketoday.soyoucouldseethatimnotjustfullofpain.thatistillhavelotsoflaughterandhappinessinme.soyoucouldseethatimok.becauseiamok.andyourewonderfulandamazingandterrificandbeautifuland<3.
eep. merry christmas.