I never liked crowded places..
I was tapping my toe to the worst music that could be playing in an airport. It was considered by me, elevator music. I was even surprised that I could hear it above all the racket in here. Cleveland, big city, full of crabby people. Especially when their flights hold delays and when everyone is in everyone else's way. Then not to mention of course
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"You'd be surprised, Faith."
I popped another M&M in my mouth, and gave her a harsh look when she talked about gwtting the stick out of my ass. Yeah, I was uneasy, we all were. If she had forgotten, we had just recently destroyed the hellmouth in Sunnydale. It was a circle of badness that never seemed to be ending any time soon. Repetitive, endless, depressing, circle.
"Doesn't matter where I'm at. I've been in cold. I've been in heat. These people don't know what's going on. They don't give a shit, either. They live their lives all normal. Something we don't have, B. Something, we'll never have."
That comment hit home. I knew it. I knew that there was no such thing as normality for us. I knew that from the beginning all those years ago when I actually tried to quit. It wasn't me that was wanting the normal life as much as I wanted Dawn to have it. I wanted her to live her life without the burden that her sister might die at any time. I wanted her to know how to fight, but not have to use her skills for it.
I followed Faith's lead in sighing and sitting back. Angel's flight was supposed to be arriving between fifteen and twenty minutes from now. As much as it seemed odd, I felt better about this whole thing. In a bigger note, Faith was right. I was tired, I was worn out....I was just... being crazy.
"Yeah."
I stopped for a second.
"Is it wrong for me to feel oddly comforted by that comment?"
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"Yeah, I guess you got me there. I just never pictured him to hold something against you." I shrugged. Angel worked in mysterious ways, huh.
B gave me the look. I saw that coming a mile, away. She cracked me up. I couldn't help but laugh. Seeing B vulnerable, like this, was a blast. Why not take advantage of it?
Everyone was pretty much on edge. Me, I was on a high. I get off on it. We destroyed the hellmouth back in Sunnydale, and I was ready for anything. Sure, I was hit hard and I could have got myself killed, but this is what I was born to do. If I didn't risk anything, my purpose would be, shit.
I munched down on a couple of M&M's.
"Is it wrong for me to feel oddly comforted by that comment?"
I smiled. "Nah, it's not wrong." I laughed.
"So...do you have your little speech prepared for Angel?" You know I had to get another jab in.
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I knew that he would, and I knew that I'd have to explain it. But I had many ideas but no ways that I could put them into words. I meant everything I said that night to Spike. I meant everything, and I don't think anyone could understand the extent that it went. I don't think anyone else was capable of it.
I touched the wound that had almost fully healed from the big battle. It still hurt, so that meant that it was all still real. It was hard to grasp. It was hard to focus on such things as a new hellmouth after a victory such as the one with Sunnydale.
"You know what I've been thinking about? Why Angel and his crew were so eager to get out of Los Angeles. Not that I'm not grateful, but it kind of makes me wonder if either they know something that we don't or if by chance...well, I don't know. Forget it."
I really did like talking to Faith this way. She made things pretty easy as far as talking to, I just had to be prepared for her opinions and hits. On a regular basis. They were usually harsh, but I respected that. I did a lot. I noticed how much she had changed in prison, and it made me feel so guilty for not letting her know that the first was after her as well. It pains me to even think about saying that we forgot.
I gave her a half smile.
Angel would be coming any minute.
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I laughed. "Wow, B. That was actually a good one. You had me there for a minute." That was really impressive. Of course, she'd never do it. Please, she was so uptight when it came to Angel. If she did happen to mention it to him, I'd give her mad props.
I really hate to admit, but sometimes I envy Buffy. Her life and friends. Technically, I'm part of the crew and I've changed, so it's not so bad. But, I'd never call myself a Scoobie. God, I get chills thinking about it. Yikes.
Then again, when it comes to relationships and men, I'm glad I'm not Buffy. Her track record is bad. Do 'em and leave 'em. That's my way.
I dare any guy to try to sweep me off of my feet.
"You know what I've been thinking about? Why Angel and his crew were so eagar to get out of Los Angeles. Not that I'm not grateful, but it kind of makes me wonder if either they know something that we don't or if by chance...well, I don't know. Forget it."
"Or if, Angel was coming back to sweep you off of your feet, again." I smirked. She had to be thinking that. "Maybe they do know something we don't", I shrugged.
I didn't overanalyze like B, so whatever was going on in her head, I couldn't relate to it.
"If you ask me, I think he's coming to help, and try to get in good with B", I winked. "I could be wrong", I said as I popped another M&M in my mouth.
Me and B were getting along better than we had before. It was cool. We've been through a lot together, lately and now we have more shit piled on. Which means, more going through a lot together. It's all good. B was good company.
"Where the hell is his plane? I feel like we've been here for hours."
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Right now, I wasn't so worried about sitting there, and stweing about Angel. I was more worried about getting out of here, and solving this problem with the new hellmouth. I didn't want to have another even like the one in Sunnydale. We had both been there: done that.
"His plane should be arriving any minute, Faith. Then we can focus on getting the hell out of here, and figuring out what our next moves are going to be. I want to be ahead of whatever is coming our way. With Angel and his crew, I think it's very possible."
I put the palm of my hand on my chin, and leaned down, looking at the door of where everyone was going to come out of. I hadn't met half of them, so this should be interesting. And awkward.
I let a sigh escape my lips.
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