startling news
every day my past, whether good or bad, gets farther and farther away and i heal and grow but im a big believer in the balance that life brings. i can look back right now and finally say i am truly happy. i have a best friend. i have so many plans, so many options, usually i would feel overwhelmed but im really just excited. i never even thought of actually going through all this and doing all this alone or without kirby. but we are officially barred from base in one week. and him and his family are getting kicked off. theres so many things that could happen now. he could be moving back to texas or back to utah. either way, its a big knife in the heart. its a big dead end. and i realized after hearing about all this that ive never been so happy with a person, with the feeling so mutual than it has been with kirby. you're my best friend. and im so scared that this could change everything and really fast. life never forgets to turn around and take every bit of happiness you hold, then leave you there to start anew. its a big cycle, that no one can fight off. it seems you will find yourself secure and happy just an instant before you become completely lost. it has always seemed that way. well anyway, we'll see what happens.