letter to my love
I got to talk to Fik today for an hour. We had a really good talk. The other day he told me to write anything on my mind so heres what i wrote to him.
Hi my love. you told me to write anything that comes into my head so i am.
well, technically im not writing im typing. i am missing you more and more with every breath i take and minute that goes by.
but i know that you are there for some reason...i dont know what that reason is but i know god has a purpose for you to be
there. and hopefully someday we will find out why. im sorry for spending money when i know we should be saving.
im sorry for crying every time i talk to you. im sorry that your in pain everyday. im sorry your missing fiks first steps,
and his first birthday. im sorry we couldnt spend our 2 year anniversary together. and valentines day. im sorry i am apoligizing
for everything but i just want everything to be like it used to be. how we would sneak around and not have a care in the world but my cerfew.
how we used to make love in your parents basement. how i would rush over to your house after school or work just to see you for 10 or 15 minutes
then have to go home. how we would stay up all night talking on the phone about random things. you are the love of my life.
my everything. my heart my soul my mind my world my rock. i dont know where i would be without you and little fik. my world is falling
apart without you here with me but i know you will come home back to me and our son and lix and our new life together. i get angry
because i want you to come home so bad but i know there is really nothing i can do. just remember when you get sad i am always here
to make you happy and even tho you never cry you have a shoulder well 2 to cry on. i love you so much and i cant wait to hold
you and kiss you and make love to you and tickle your balls and hear you giggle like a little boy. i love you baby. you will
forever be my king. eternally yours - Queenie
We talked about how we hold things in because we dont want to get angry at each other because hes over there and im here spending his money and having fun. Im so tired of having to talk to him over the phone but i know that i have to be patient and he will come home to me.
On another note, i got my pics developed from when Amy, Jamie and Jen were here. they came out really good. Ill post some jen put up on my webshots but ill do it when my computer isnt being a fag.
Im going to VA on the 15th of April. my sister is coming to pick me up next weekend to take me and little fik and chloe to FL for a week. then im flying to VA from there. I cant wait to go to the beach and have some time to myself and chill with my family and friends.
I cant believe my son will be 1 on April 29th. it seems like this past year is just a blur. i cant believe how fast time goes by. i just hope this year goes by as fast as last year did. because i cant take being alone for too much longer. i wish i would have moved back to VA instead of getting a house on post. sometimes i like it here sometimes i dont. i just get so lonely here.
Fik has a meeting with the head commanding officer tomorrow so im hoping they'll tell him hes useless because of his back and just send his ass home. all he does all day is watch dvds and play halo. i mean its nice cus hes not going on missions anymore and i dont have to worry about him getting blown up by some suicide bomber but its pointless for him to be over there.
anyway, i played halo yesterday for the first time in 3 months and i about had an orgasm. i fucking love that game. i cant wait to go to VA and school chris in it.
anyway, i guess thats all for now. i might write more later if i think of something i missed.
oh yeah, ive lost 15 pounds. and i only have 10 more to go. :o) I also got a tattoo. Its sexy, i got a tribal butterfly outlined in pink on the small of my back. it hurt like a bitch but im a tuff girl so ill be ok.
Amy- i will get you a Liger one day.
Hi my love. you told me to write anything that comes into my head so i am.
well, technically im not writing im typing. i am missing you more and more with every breath i take and minute that goes by.
but i know that you are there for some reason...i dont know what that reason is but i know god has a purpose for you to be
there. and hopefully someday we will find out why. im sorry for spending money when i know we should be saving.
im sorry for crying every time i talk to you. im sorry that your in pain everyday. im sorry your missing fiks first steps,
and his first birthday. im sorry we couldnt spend our 2 year anniversary together. and valentines day. im sorry i am apoligizing
for everything but i just want everything to be like it used to be. how we would sneak around and not have a care in the world but my cerfew.
how we used to make love in your parents basement. how i would rush over to your house after school or work just to see you for 10 or 15 minutes
then have to go home. how we would stay up all night talking on the phone about random things. you are the love of my life.
my everything. my heart my soul my mind my world my rock. i dont know where i would be without you and little fik. my world is falling
apart without you here with me but i know you will come home back to me and our son and lix and our new life together. i get angry
because i want you to come home so bad but i know there is really nothing i can do. just remember when you get sad i am always here
to make you happy and even tho you never cry you have a shoulder well 2 to cry on. i love you so much and i cant wait to hold
you and kiss you and make love to you and tickle your balls and hear you giggle like a little boy. i love you baby. you will
forever be my king. eternally yours - Queenie
We talked about how we hold things in because we dont want to get angry at each other because hes over there and im here spending his money and having fun. Im so tired of having to talk to him over the phone but i know that i have to be patient and he will come home to me.
On another note, i got my pics developed from when Amy, Jamie and Jen were here. they came out really good. Ill post some jen put up on my webshots but ill do it when my computer isnt being a fag.
Im going to VA on the 15th of April. my sister is coming to pick me up next weekend to take me and little fik and chloe to FL for a week. then im flying to VA from there. I cant wait to go to the beach and have some time to myself and chill with my family and friends.
I cant believe my son will be 1 on April 29th. it seems like this past year is just a blur. i cant believe how fast time goes by. i just hope this year goes by as fast as last year did. because i cant take being alone for too much longer. i wish i would have moved back to VA instead of getting a house on post. sometimes i like it here sometimes i dont. i just get so lonely here.
Fik has a meeting with the head commanding officer tomorrow so im hoping they'll tell him hes useless because of his back and just send his ass home. all he does all day is watch dvds and play halo. i mean its nice cus hes not going on missions anymore and i dont have to worry about him getting blown up by some suicide bomber but its pointless for him to be over there.
anyway, i played halo yesterday for the first time in 3 months and i about had an orgasm. i fucking love that game. i cant wait to go to VA and school chris in it.
anyway, i guess thats all for now. i might write more later if i think of something i missed.
oh yeah, ive lost 15 pounds. and i only have 10 more to go. :o) I also got a tattoo. Its sexy, i got a tribal butterfly outlined in pink on the small of my back. it hurt like a bitch but im a tuff girl so ill be ok.
Amy- i will get you a Liger one day.