another lonely night....
here i am on another Saturday night sitting home...alone. and Rafik is out at a club in Texas...stayin in a hotel with his buddies gettin drunk. i cant help but be jealous of him talking to and looking at other girls. i trust him with all of my heart and i know he would never cheat on me but my emotions are all screwed up. this isnt the way its supposed to be. hes sposed to be here taking care of me. and im supposed to be making him breakfast in the mornings and doing his laundry and other wifely duties. its not fair. why did this all have to happen right now? i dont understand. whatever...im gonna go watch tv and continue to be sick to my stomach.