I'm Pretty Bastard-ish...
A lot of people who know me, I mean really know, get this side of me that tends to be, bang-boom-yeah-I-said-that-what-about-it? I mean I've said a lot of shitty things to people. But few people are of the understanding that I really only ever say those things because I care. I care enough to say that you're being a dick, I care enough to judge your friends because I'm aware that you will get hurt and meet disappointment, I care enough to say that your hot new girl\boyfriend might not be everything you see. Those few people know that I wouldn't waste my time if I didn't care about you. It's much easier to nod my head when someone I dislike ask me if the pants they are wearing make their ass look big, than to say endure the shit storm that "um, you're a little plump down there" will kick up.
Yes I'm pretty bastard-ish, but I care.
That being said in regards to my one and only true love, Crystal (G6), I've seen a lot of guys(stalkers) walk into her life. I'm seen a great many of them sent packing, a few of which I've helped arrange their things before their exit out of her life. And I've been used. Not in big dramatic ways, but subtle I-only-see-you-as-an-obstacle-in-my-way-as-I-try-to-court-Crystal kind of ways. Simply put, I am the closet that anyone can be to Crystal. I'm a G. I'm THE G. The WHOLE group. (Ok well maybe not that, it's just fun to say) I love Crytal, more than any douche bag that comes around would care to recognize or could ever live up to. Yes, yes there are other Gs that love her just as much but come on... I mean it's a wonder we aren't married yet. ( I just wouldn't sleep with her...=;P)
I understand how important it is to tell someone how you feel about them. I mean Alex would always say things like "If I died tomorrow I'd want to die without regretting anything. So this is why I try to do thing that you might see as dangerous" and I would always respond with "If I died tomorrow I would want everyone I loved to know I loved them. I love you so that takes care of that." I believe that it's one of the most important things in this world. And without such pressure as imminent death, I think it's all about how you chose to express it and the ways you go about telling someone. It's the romantic libra thing I have. ( You people should call me and we could talk about love) But on the flip side I am well aware of the potential for that to blow up in people faces, for the timing to be off or the situation to be wrong. I just wish guys would fuckin' listen to me and most of all listen to Crystal. I mean REALLY REALLY listen to her. You know instead of pile driving your way through everything. Cuz, you know here's a tip from her boyfriend of 8 years, Crystal digs guys who listen.
I just think it funny how you can line up all your cards, try to set the mood and psych yourself up and let Crystal know that you care about her and just what she means to you. That you can walk away from it feeling smug and angelic and puff out your chest. But then fail to inspire her to be motivated for a response because all you've done was corner her, because all you've done is show her how inconsiderate and selfish you are by disregarding everything else except for your own feelings. To show her that all that matters is what you want.
I mean it's funny, right?
Yes I'm pretty bastard-ish, but I care.
That being said in regards to my one and only true love, Crystal (G6), I've seen a lot of guys(stalkers) walk into her life. I'm seen a great many of them sent packing, a few of which I've helped arrange their things before their exit out of her life. And I've been used. Not in big dramatic ways, but subtle I-only-see-you-as-an-obstacle-in-my-way-as-I-try-to-court-Crystal kind of ways. Simply put, I am the closet that anyone can be to Crystal. I'm a G. I'm THE G. The WHOLE group. (Ok well maybe not that, it's just fun to say) I love Crytal, more than any douche bag that comes around would care to recognize or could ever live up to. Yes, yes there are other Gs that love her just as much but come on... I mean it's a wonder we aren't married yet. ( I just wouldn't sleep with her...=;P)
I understand how important it is to tell someone how you feel about them. I mean Alex would always say things like "If I died tomorrow I'd want to die without regretting anything. So this is why I try to do thing that you might see as dangerous" and I would always respond with "If I died tomorrow I would want everyone I loved to know I loved them. I love you so that takes care of that." I believe that it's one of the most important things in this world. And without such pressure as imminent death, I think it's all about how you chose to express it and the ways you go about telling someone. It's the romantic libra thing I have. ( You people should call me and we could talk about love) But on the flip side I am well aware of the potential for that to blow up in people faces, for the timing to be off or the situation to be wrong. I just wish guys would fuckin' listen to me and most of all listen to Crystal. I mean REALLY REALLY listen to her. You know instead of pile driving your way through everything. Cuz, you know here's a tip from her boyfriend of 8 years, Crystal digs guys who listen.
I just think it funny how you can line up all your cards, try to set the mood and psych yourself up and let Crystal know that you care about her and just what she means to you. That you can walk away from it feeling smug and angelic and puff out your chest. But then fail to inspire her to be motivated for a response because all you've done was corner her, because all you've done is show her how inconsiderate and selfish you are by disregarding everything else except for your own feelings. To show her that all that matters is what you want.
I mean it's funny, right?