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Ok so right now I am a little angry... or maybe very angry.
Everything that I was going for...my goal.. is just .. ruined.
Maybe it's a little bit of I wanted to try and impress certain people with my progress. I didn't like what people thought of me before so I tried to be like them... and then when I was actually doing it... feeling good about myself I find out it was all alie. They aren't proud of me at all... the have to pin point the one tiny little thing that I did wrong.
Now when I think of Jello... I think of water sugar just the basics. How the hell was I supposed to know that the gelatin in there was bones from animals? You know what it doesn't matter... call me heartless but the main reason I was doing this wasn't for animal rights. So as long as they cleaned the bones, and its not actual meat then I should be ok.
Just kind of makes me sick to my stomach that this whole time I was like ok another day passed GO me.. and because I took two or three bites of this jello I had its all ruined. So its only been like two or three days. Which makes everything that I did before worthless. The whole point of it being my new years resolution is bull.. I broke it... without knowing I broke it. I hate myself for that. I have been eating close to nothing...salads peanut butter and jelly sandwhiches.. and veggie pizzas because I don't know what else is ok to eat. The ONE other thing I eat... and not even finish is the one thing the ruined it for me. It makes me want to quit... I don't know what to do.
Everything that I was going for...my goal.. is just .. ruined.
Maybe it's a little bit of I wanted to try and impress certain people with my progress. I didn't like what people thought of me before so I tried to be like them... and then when I was actually doing it... feeling good about myself I find out it was all alie. They aren't proud of me at all... the have to pin point the one tiny little thing that I did wrong.
Now when I think of Jello... I think of water sugar just the basics. How the hell was I supposed to know that the gelatin in there was bones from animals? You know what it doesn't matter... call me heartless but the main reason I was doing this wasn't for animal rights. So as long as they cleaned the bones, and its not actual meat then I should be ok.
Just kind of makes me sick to my stomach that this whole time I was like ok another day passed GO me.. and because I took two or three bites of this jello I had its all ruined. So its only been like two or three days. Which makes everything that I did before worthless. The whole point of it being my new years resolution is bull.. I broke it... without knowing I broke it. I hate myself for that. I have been eating close to nothing...salads peanut butter and jelly sandwhiches.. and veggie pizzas because I don't know what else is ok to eat. The ONE other thing I eat... and not even finish is the one thing the ruined it for me. It makes me want to quit... I don't know what to do.