the spark of old connections
I love communication.
It's the stuff of life. If we were alone on this planet, I could understand not communicating (except I would probably talk to myself anyway.) And I guess I can also relate to isolating yourself and not wanting anything to do with people - I've been there, unfortunately, and am SO thankful I've snapped out of that. Because people are incredible. And nothing gives such a good feeling as making a connection with a new soul, or rekindling an old one that you'd thought had faded.
Last night I realized that someone I was afraid I'd lost from my life - someone whose friendship I previously couldn't imagine living without, but somehow over the years had drifted - was still there, and still on the same page as me. This past weekend looking at pictures from high school and remembering all the stupid fun times I hadn't thought of in years, it hit me full force just what an amazing friendship we had, and also how we've barely talked in months. When we do talk it's not the same - seems distant and almost akward. I was afraid she was mad at me, that she thought I'd been replacing her with my new friends and new life at college, but nothing could be further from the truth. I haven't had a friendship like hers since high school - she's seriously one of a kind and completely irreplacable in that way. She also had an amazing effect on my personality, making me relax and enjoy life when things get stressful. I was a much more laid-back person in high school than I am now, and I'd have to credit that to her.
But anyway I've been thinking all week that I need to call her or get in touch and just tell her everything I'd been thinking, because this is not a friendship worth throwing away or letting slide. I realize not many people keep in touch with high school friends, and that's part of life - I don't want to be naive and think I can stay as close to everyone I was close to in high school. But this one, at least, I'm not letting go with silence - maybe it's dramatic, but I have to let her know I haven't forgotten. So as these (and thousands of other) thoughts have been going through my head all week, and I'm dead tired and needing to go to bed since crew is just a few hours away, I suddenly get an IM from her for the first time in months - and everything's normal. I tell her what i've been thinking, she tells me the same thing, little friendship catharsis, and *poof* we're high school pals again. Catching up on everything and wanting to hear each other's life stories, reading each other's minds like we used to. Simple as that.
Some friendships you never need to doubt ;)
Felt like last night was a high school reunion - also chatted with another girl I graduated with and hopefully will be catching up with soon, and two of my best guy friends who I don't see often anymore.
I don't think I've spent that much time on AIM in a long time - I guess it's good for something. Don't get me wrong, it still sucks ass. * t-e-l-e-p-h-o-n-e-s *
Later loves~
It's the stuff of life. If we were alone on this planet, I could understand not communicating (except I would probably talk to myself anyway.) And I guess I can also relate to isolating yourself and not wanting anything to do with people - I've been there, unfortunately, and am SO thankful I've snapped out of that. Because people are incredible. And nothing gives such a good feeling as making a connection with a new soul, or rekindling an old one that you'd thought had faded.
Last night I realized that someone I was afraid I'd lost from my life - someone whose friendship I previously couldn't imagine living without, but somehow over the years had drifted - was still there, and still on the same page as me. This past weekend looking at pictures from high school and remembering all the stupid fun times I hadn't thought of in years, it hit me full force just what an amazing friendship we had, and also how we've barely talked in months. When we do talk it's not the same - seems distant and almost akward. I was afraid she was mad at me, that she thought I'd been replacing her with my new friends and new life at college, but nothing could be further from the truth. I haven't had a friendship like hers since high school - she's seriously one of a kind and completely irreplacable in that way. She also had an amazing effect on my personality, making me relax and enjoy life when things get stressful. I was a much more laid-back person in high school than I am now, and I'd have to credit that to her.
But anyway I've been thinking all week that I need to call her or get in touch and just tell her everything I'd been thinking, because this is not a friendship worth throwing away or letting slide. I realize not many people keep in touch with high school friends, and that's part of life - I don't want to be naive and think I can stay as close to everyone I was close to in high school. But this one, at least, I'm not letting go with silence - maybe it's dramatic, but I have to let her know I haven't forgotten. So as these (and thousands of other) thoughts have been going through my head all week, and I'm dead tired and needing to go to bed since crew is just a few hours away, I suddenly get an IM from her for the first time in months - and everything's normal. I tell her what i've been thinking, she tells me the same thing, little friendship catharsis, and *poof* we're high school pals again. Catching up on everything and wanting to hear each other's life stories, reading each other's minds like we used to. Simple as that.
Some friendships you never need to doubt ;)
Felt like last night was a high school reunion - also chatted with another girl I graduated with and hopefully will be catching up with soon, and two of my best guy friends who I don't see often anymore.
I don't think I've spent that much time on AIM in a long time - I guess it's good for something. Don't get me wrong, it still sucks ass. * t-e-l-e-p-h-o-n-e-s *
Later loves~