31 july 2008. (3)

Jul 31, 2008 21:29


has anyone ever moved in with someone?

it’s a strange and slightly alienating thing to both come into the midst of, and be constantly surrounded by, someone’s memories. photos of ex-boyfriends, furniture and appliances picked without you, mementos representing things that were wholly formed before you were a part of the equation.

i made a conscious decision to move lightly, to start over again as an attempt at a fresh start, an abrupt stop to all my bad habits and decisions. this, though, compounds things. the ratio is more than slightly lopsided, and while i’m not seriously upset or anything close, it’s just a remarkable thing to ponder. i have an urge to fill, fill, fill, but i don’t want it to be superficial and reactionary. i want memories to come organically.

also, i’m broke.

mostly, beyond this slightly strange circumstance i’ve shifted into, i’m happy. i walked down to hawthorne arts district, wondering why i bought an august transit pass when everything is so lush and beautiful. i’m sure the groggy mornings will justify it eventually. i spent an hour out in the sunshine with the hound dog, reading the new david sedaris and talking to passersby. i’ve filled my calendar with things to do. the nights are when i get homesick-many of them have been rather blue-but i’m getting better and better.

Originally published at scott anthony dot org. Please leave any comments there.

portland, misc, david sedaris, hawthorne

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