This might be the End
well sittin here messin with the computer and talkin to steph. i called in today at work. didnt much feel like goin, plus...i gotta bad...cough.
i dunno what im gonna do about this situation im in. well i guess theres nothing i can do. i've never had a limit of the amount of days to which i am allowed to spend with someone. its bull shit. i hate someone right now. but im not going to let you tell him that you'll see me only once a month and then not follow through with it. once a month? c'mon. i'd never let anyone tell me what i am going to do. i know we've been talking on the phone all morning and things seem like they might be ok again between us but i dont think they're going to be as long as he thinks im going to see you but once a month. you said you love us both equally. well tell him you're only going to see him once a month and see what he says. if he agrees, which there will be no chance of that, then i'll agree with the terms. but you'll basically lose us both if that happens. if he says no about him seeing you once a month and you continue to try to keep me a secret, then you lose me. dont even think thats my decision, its yours. i dont really want to type anything else. you already know how i feel about everything. im done now i guess. bye.
(thank you steph)
i dunno what im gonna do about this situation im in. well i guess theres nothing i can do. i've never had a limit of the amount of days to which i am allowed to spend with someone. its bull shit. i hate someone right now. but im not going to let you tell him that you'll see me only once a month and then not follow through with it. once a month? c'mon. i'd never let anyone tell me what i am going to do. i know we've been talking on the phone all morning and things seem like they might be ok again between us but i dont think they're going to be as long as he thinks im going to see you but once a month. you said you love us both equally. well tell him you're only going to see him once a month and see what he says. if he agrees, which there will be no chance of that, then i'll agree with the terms. but you'll basically lose us both if that happens. if he says no about him seeing you once a month and you continue to try to keep me a secret, then you lose me. dont even think thats my decision, its yours. i dont really want to type anything else. you already know how i feel about everything. im done now i guess. bye.
(thank you steph)