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setupfailure: hey
setupfailure: how are you
PrettyWhnSedated: hey
PrettyWhnSedated: im orety goodw
PrettyWhnSedated: how are you
setupfailure: i am ok
setupfailure: confused a bit but ok
setupfailure: i suck at feeling
setupfailure: lol
setupfailure: and when people ask you how you feel, and you just want to say ou dont
PrettyWhnSedated: whats happanenign
setupfailure: but you know you can't cause they just wouldn't understand
setupfailure: well...
setupfailure: be and my best friend can't hang out anymore
PrettyWhnSedated: i can undrestand
setupfailure: i got drunk and she was supposed to drive me home
setupfailure: but then she got drunk
setupfailure: lol
PrettyWhnSedated: uh ohhhhhhhhhh
setupfailure: and now my boyfriend doesn't want me to be around people who wont look out for me
setupfailure: but the thing is
setupfailure: i dont care
setupfailure: like i could not care less if i get to hang out with her
PrettyWhnSedated: im rsorry
setupfailure: why though
setupfailure: lol ya know/
setupfailure: ?
setupfailure: like
setupfailure: what the hell
setupfailure: why dont i care
setupfailure: and why dont i feel 100% alive
PrettyWhnSedated: i dont know
PrettyWhnSedated: you should
setupfailure: i mean i will have my mometns but they still feel like i am just pretending
setupfailure: i dont fucking get it
setupfailure: it still feels like i am out of my mind
PrettyWhnSedated: we need to see eachother ASAP
setupfailure: it takes so much out of me just to breath like everybody else, like ya know how you smoke to get out of this reality
setupfailure: well i am trying so hard to live in it
PrettyWhnSedated: jeez
setupfailure: and my mind wont let me
setupfailure: ya know
setupfailure: god damn i want this to make sense to people
PrettyWhnSedated: and they just wont undrestamd you right
setupfailure: it seems like no one can
setupfailure: if i try to explain it
setupfailure: they get affended
setupfailure: and feel like they are doing something wrong
setupfailure: but it is me ya know
setupfailure: i just want to feel the emotions people see when i am around them
setupfailure: when i am happy i want to feel it
PrettyWhnSedated: ive beem through something similar to that
setupfailure: when i am angry i want to feel it
PrettyWhnSedated: i wasnt you to live happili cheyene
setupfailure: it seems like it is just all on the surface and nothing is penitrating me to the point where what they see is what i am feeling
setupfailure: me too!!!
setupfailure: lol
setupfailure: i am
setupfailure: everything is great
setupfailure: so what is wrong?
setupfailure: dude, i have to go
setupfailure: i am sorry
PrettyWhnSedated: .ok
setupfailure: just venting
setupfailure: i love you ok
PrettyWhnSedated: if
setupfailure: i will talk to you later
PrettyWhnSedated: i love you too
setupfailure: i am going to put this in my livejournal so maybe people will get it
setupfailure: cause i find it rare that i can put this into words
setupfailure: how are you
PrettyWhnSedated: hey
PrettyWhnSedated: im orety goodw
PrettyWhnSedated: how are you
setupfailure: i am ok
setupfailure: confused a bit but ok
setupfailure: i suck at feeling
setupfailure: lol
setupfailure: and when people ask you how you feel, and you just want to say ou dont
PrettyWhnSedated: whats happanenign
setupfailure: but you know you can't cause they just wouldn't understand
setupfailure: well...
setupfailure: be and my best friend can't hang out anymore
PrettyWhnSedated: i can undrestand
setupfailure: i got drunk and she was supposed to drive me home
setupfailure: but then she got drunk
setupfailure: lol
PrettyWhnSedated: uh ohhhhhhhhhh
setupfailure: and now my boyfriend doesn't want me to be around people who wont look out for me
setupfailure: but the thing is
setupfailure: i dont care
setupfailure: like i could not care less if i get to hang out with her
PrettyWhnSedated: im rsorry
setupfailure: why though
setupfailure: lol ya know/
setupfailure: ?
setupfailure: like
setupfailure: what the hell
setupfailure: why dont i care
setupfailure: and why dont i feel 100% alive
PrettyWhnSedated: i dont know
PrettyWhnSedated: you should
setupfailure: i mean i will have my mometns but they still feel like i am just pretending
setupfailure: i dont fucking get it
setupfailure: it still feels like i am out of my mind
PrettyWhnSedated: we need to see eachother ASAP
setupfailure: it takes so much out of me just to breath like everybody else, like ya know how you smoke to get out of this reality
setupfailure: well i am trying so hard to live in it
PrettyWhnSedated: jeez
setupfailure: and my mind wont let me
setupfailure: ya know
setupfailure: god damn i want this to make sense to people
PrettyWhnSedated: and they just wont undrestamd you right
setupfailure: it seems like no one can
setupfailure: if i try to explain it
setupfailure: they get affended
setupfailure: and feel like they are doing something wrong
setupfailure: but it is me ya know
setupfailure: i just want to feel the emotions people see when i am around them
setupfailure: when i am happy i want to feel it
PrettyWhnSedated: ive beem through something similar to that
setupfailure: when i am angry i want to feel it
PrettyWhnSedated: i wasnt you to live happili cheyene
setupfailure: it seems like it is just all on the surface and nothing is penitrating me to the point where what they see is what i am feeling
setupfailure: me too!!!
setupfailure: lol
setupfailure: i am
setupfailure: everything is great
setupfailure: so what is wrong?
setupfailure: dude, i have to go
setupfailure: i am sorry
PrettyWhnSedated: .ok
setupfailure: just venting
setupfailure: i love you ok
PrettyWhnSedated: if
setupfailure: i will talk to you later
PrettyWhnSedated: i love you too
setupfailure: i am going to put this in my livejournal so maybe people will get it
setupfailure: cause i find it rare that i can put this into words