I think I'm feeling up for this again

Jul 23, 2004 00:00

Okay: There's a comment for everyone on my friend's list. Guess which one is yours. (tell me when you guess whether you want me to keep giving you hints until you get or tell me which one yours is.)
I tried to write something that I have meant to but never said to each person. (Because I tend to be brutally honesty girl, this means for my close friends, the comments might not cover how wonderfully I feel about you, because I in general tell you every time I think something about you. You know who you are, and you know how much you mean to me.)
NOTHING on here is meant to be snarky. If you are offended by something you think refers to you (firstly make sure it *does* refer to you), but secondly know that I didn't mean it to hurt you, and talk to me about it.

You: are easily the most nurturing person I've ever met. You're always ready to do a favour for anyone, at any time, regardless of whether you think that person likes you or will reciprocate. It's quite respectable.

You: I think I will spend the rest of my life apologizing to you. I was foolish and immature and some day you will forgive me. I think I'm too optimistic to hope that you'll ever let me back in completely, and maybe that's what I deserve, but I'll keep hoping, and keep trying to make up for it. For the rest of my life, if need be.

You: Were the most enjoyable platonic one-night stand I ever had. I'm glad she took my advice -- I like having you more securely indirectly connected to me, because you're cool people.

You: I should give you the credit you deserve more frequently. You'll drop everything to help a friend, no matter how things might be for you. Equally importantly, you realise there's no shame in asking for support and you do so without hesitation.

You: I've decided I was probably your pet freshman. I had a really bad case of hero-worship with respect to you. I think I probably still do. It made me happy for a week when you referred to yourself as my friend. I'm such a geek. I'll still be in awe of you anyway, but I think that awe might finally be giving way to genuine friendship.

You: I hurt you badly. I wish I could regret it, but I had to do it at that point -- although I regret getting myself into a hole wherein I had to hurt someone to get myself back out. If it's any consolation, I care about you, still. Hurting you was one of the hardest things I've ever done and you deserve a personal apology. It's forthcoming. Some day, God willing, you will forgive me. If God's grace truly smiles upon us, some day you will understand why I did it.

You: Prove the rule that given a good enough friend, that person's friends will be interesting as well. What I've seen of you, I really like.

You: I meant what I said, but when I forgave, you were forgiven. I never didn't want to be your friend, per se. You just make me uncomfortable with the way you act when you're around a lot of other people. Individually, you are calm and thoughtful. I want to be your friend on the latter level, but it's hard for me to deal with the former.

You: Life has given you some of the hardest trials I have ever heard abou, yet you manage to never be bitter towards others, even in your dark times. good luck with your dreams -- I have a lot of faith that you'll help many people in your life.

You: Let's start our friendship off on the right foot. I hold no preconceptions.

You: You've always forgiven my flaws and never failed to have an encouraging smile for me.

You: You've grown up a lot since I really knew you. I wonder who you are now. Mostly because I have little doubt that you're interesting.

You: You're intense and dedicated to the things that are important. As a friend, you're laidback, yet caring. Although we've not been close, you're trustworthy and a good friend and you have my utmost respect.

You: There hasn't been a day since we became friends, even in the loosest sense of the term that I haven't thought about you. Sometimes I think that everything that happened, weal and woe, happened to make me become friends with you, and therefore I don't regret it. I would have endured ten times worse for the privledge of calling you my friend.

You: I liked you for the instant I met you, and my instinct proved right. You're deep and interesting and have an admirable amount of dedication to your friends. Your zaniness can be contagious, and you know when I need it.

You: I was discussing with Alli the other week about how no one talks about lockboxes anymore and it's sad. So, you are a lockbox of faith. It sounds funny, but true -- every time my faith in humanity has been lacking you have been there, to depend on and as a stepping stone to build trust and faith back up again.

You: Seem to have a genuine desire to be friends with everyone you meet. It's cool.

You: Sometimes it's hard for me to remember that you do want to be my friend, but I treasure the time we do spend together, however little it is. I love the discussions we have, I love the girl time that we have and I love the gaming time we have. In fact, whenever I'm with you, it's wonderful.

You: Seem really cool. I tend to like anyone who can hold their own and believes in brutal honesty. And you make work a heck of a lot more fun.

You: I think more anyone else I have ever known, you have made me aware of my flaws, and I have changed because of that. Of everyone I know, I think you are the one that has encouraged me to mature the most. Thank you. And thank you for continuing to be that for me, even when it's hard. You mean a lot to me.

You: It's always nice to see you again. I'm glad you've found your niche, although honestly, I think you would have suceeded at whatever you chose.

You: do everything -- it's amazing. And you're also somehow kind to everyone. Even thogh you don't know me well, you readily accepted me as a friend. Your presence is always a blessing.

You: You've had hard times, and I'm glad you had good close friends. I'm sorry I couldn't be one of them -- you were there for me when I needed you and I appreciate it.

You: I wish I knew you better. My impressions of you have always been good.

You: I wasted a lot of time that I should have spent getting to know you better wishing I were you. I think I still do, but lately I've tried to just bask in the reflected glory of how smart you are, how kind you are, how patient you are and how diligent you are. You help by always seeming to think I'm just as good as you are (even though that's obviously a delusional point of view.)

You: seem good to her. She deserves it.

You: When things were the worst, your declaration of friendship towards me made a lot of difference. You are insanely cool and I wish I had gotten to know you better.

You: If there were fairness in the world, you would know how much you meant to everyone you touch. I enjoy your candor, and your trust in me. You are more like me than you will probably ever know. I think everyone goes through the things you do, but you are one of the special few who is honest enough with themselves to admit it.

You: I have forgiven you. You don't need to forgive me -- I have forgiven myself for my part. God has forgiven me as well. I am older than I once was...now, I just worry about you. Don't rush to get yourself in over your head in a bad situation. After everything, I still want the best for you. I hope I'm wrong in my perspective and that everything will go swimmingly for you. I hope that with all my heart.

You: I'm really enjoying getting closer to you, again. You never let me apologize, but I am sorry for judging you before I really met you. Thank you for giving me a chance to rectify that mistake. The amount to which you care about others is an inspiration for everyone. You don't need to carry the weight of the world on your own shoulders -- some of us would gladly help you shoulder the load. Just ask. I will be there for you whenever you'll let me.

You: seem a natural leader and seem to spearhead at least one activity of every variety I can think of. It wouldn't be the same place without you.

You: I think the you that you present when there are a lot of other people around overwhelms me, and you're extroverted enough that there are always a lot of other people around; however, the times I've been with you one-on-one or with only a few other people I've really enjoyed it -- we should do that more often.

You: my view of you was kind of like the ideal gas law -- when I found out you were actually a real person, with a personality, who was actually willing to talk to me and stuff, I was shocked. Reading your livejournal I've been realizing more and more that you are a real person with a real day-to-day life and interests and opinions. I'm not sure why it's taken me so long to figure that out, but ironically enough, it's just made you seem like an even more interesting and idealized person to me.

You: You always strive for the ideal and although we differ in the extreme on the details, I can't help but admire that. You mastered yourself and made yourself into a person that is a true, deep, sincere friend to everyone -- something I've always admired. You challenge me to make myself a better person, too. I never meant to drift. I wish we hadn't.

You: I don't think I've mentioned how jealous I am of your ability to always say exactly what you think. even if you might hurt someone, you realize the importance of openess and honesty. I respect that a lot.

You: Getting as close to you as I have snuck up on me, and kind of took me by surprise, but I've really enjoyed it. I don't think you realize how many things in your life you handle skillfully. Opportunities will always present themselves to you, because you want them. Good luck.

You: Always have something articulate and interesting to add to any conversation. But I'm not sure we've ever hung out outside of deep conversation-mode. In fact, I'm sure we've hung out more times than I can currently remember. Nevertheless....

You: I'm always shocked that you know me inside and out and still like me for all of it. There was a time in which I tried to hide parts of me from you, so that I would seem more like you. That you liked me for me was shocking, and the biggest compliment I have ever received. I can't even imagine Alternate Universe Becca that never met you. Somehow, in every possible universe, ever possible me has met every possible you. Take that, quantum mechanics.

You: I'm not really sure where you got the impression I hated you from. I come off strong sometimes, but I don't hate you. You seem interested in the same things as I, and I've been meaning to discuss politics with you (I've been told it's an experience). Had our paths crossed differently, I'm sure we would have really hit it off. Don't assume that I hold the fact that they didn't against you.

You: Are kind and forgiving, and I respect you for your ability to be that. You've been through a lot and I respect your ability to confront your fears from the past and live in the present.
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