Jul 28, 2005 11:28
So at BYU....I went on...lets see....1 date...That I asked Mossimo on....Preference. and a few with Matty. But thats it. And for some reason I come home this summer and all these old men feel the need to take me out on dates. I hate dates! ok I take that back, if you know the guy and are super comfortable around them they are cool...if not...they suck! They are just awkwardddd! So this guy Jeff....the one from Jim's mission in Atlanta....one of the security guys calls last night and was like "hey can I take you out on Saturday..." GOOOO. Why can't I just have a guy friend for 10 seconds!?!? Especially RM's...they insist on dating. This guy is totally cool and all...I just really don't like dates, I'd rather be hanging out w/ a bunch of people. So basically, I'll have fun on Saturday...but things will get awkward...and I will never hang out with them again. Just like what happened with Adam...and Mark. blah! no challenge. it sucks. I'm just not interested. ESPECIALLY now...cuz like i think i said a few days ago, evidently his Best friend Trapper is ENGAGED...which equallllsss....he wants to get married. I don't. Like even if Matty was back and stuff and things were back to normal...I STILL don't wanna get married. This Mormon world that I live in is psycho!!! I guess this is what is going to happen all next year at liberty square. gooooo. ME and Jill got all excited to have these chill guy frineds that are out here for the summer...no....we can't be friends...we have to date. BLAH!
So lets see....oh ya, tuesday night we met up with Nick (ya that one) to go bowling. with me, jill, brittany, nick, brooke, jeremey, and Pam (their mom...hahah). but we get to the bowling alley...and like its 8th grade night. and there was a choke long wait. so we drove to another one....evidentally the thing to do on tuesday nights is bowl. so we just went back to brooke's to have pizza and icecream. nothing happened. we were with everyone the whole time....plus....nick is kinda awkward. but he is here til monday. so we will see. however...I do have that hot date on saturday. ahhahaha....
last night I went to institute. i wanted to go to casa bonita with val and everyone....but i needed to go to institute. it was good. i got kinda bitter after it, i don't really know why...but we went to cold stone and then to walmart to get stuff for a package for ty. I went to bed at 11. gosh, I'm a loser. I don't really care.
I talked to celeste yesterday. well emailed. im gonna call her today. im really excited. she sounds super cool! I am just really excited to have a new group of frineds and start over again. that the thing about byu...you start over every year...completely. which is sad....but good. bittersweet. but, I hope we can become close. Dad asked me who my closest friend going into this school year would be....I was like "uhhh...aubrey...no...haley...no...megan...no monica...noooo...i don't know" when i thought about it i was like "wow I feel super alone." But its cool, it gives me the opportunity to do what i did last summer. no strings attached. Another reason I don't know what to do about classes and all sports pass. I wanna stay close w/ jill like i have this summer, but in all reality, i wanna move on. try to forget about this past year. anyway, im debating on when my last day of work will be. I'm thinking the.... 12th. which gives me til the 25th when i can move in...and the 29th when school starts. I think I wanna get out to utah...like that next week. kinda just chill. relax. get ready for school. ill start working out really hard core those 2 weeks too. but i think dad wants me to keep working...another 400$ would be sweet, but dude, I'm spent. That will give me a few days to say goodbye to everyone here too. and i can get out there and hopefully start hanging out w/ celeste or whoever.
well, back to ...uhhh..work?
Jess