not tired for once!
So last night i was literally in bed at.....about 9:45...how awesome is that?!?!? I started to drift asleep, when Stephen called. So I of course stayed up for like the next 45 min to talk to him. i love that kid. I could seriously talk to him for hours. I'm really gonna miss him. He is such a great guy. even though our relationship ended sucky....he really is a great friend, and we taught eachother a lot about ourselves. Im sick of goodbyes, I was almost glad he hadn't called me, cuz i didn't wanna say goodbye again, but oh well. He is one person that I really respect a lot. Especially for everything that he has done with mandi. he doesn't put up with people's crap, and he doesn't care what people think about him, he does his own thing. i love it when i get to a relationship with a guy, and i can be completely myself, and tell him anything....thats how it was with stephen....and jeff too(until he kinda freaked). Stephen always gave me the straight up guys opinion. he wasn't the tyical guy who trys to act all guyish and not tell me what he thinks or what any guy would think....he tells me straight up. sad. i like really want guys to talk to right now...but im hesitant to start talking to armenian a lot or nate or something, cuz i just have to say goodbye to them in 2 weeks. booo.
anyway....lets see....monday i went to chili's with parker for his bday. we made val sing to us! i love parker! he's such a stud, he makes me laugh. then i went to fhe...just to talk on the phone for like 30 min to amanda farr. i never thought i'd say this...but really miss her!!! she really is a sweet girl. she of course made me all nostalgic and miss everyone. but she is a great listener....and made me feel good....especially about matt. She made me remember his personality. and its not like he blows people off on purpose...to be a guy...he just does it...and doesn't realize it. like you seriously need to be like "matt this is what you do..." but....im slowly getting over him. cuz i realized i need to move on!!! Mine and stephen's relationship came to the conclusion that missionary relationships are stupid. they need to move on, and so do you. 2 years is a long time. and if its right in 2 years...its right....if not....then well, at least you didn't waste any time. you can't move onto the future living in the past. (WOW THAT WAS DEEP!!!! WHO AM I!?!?...preach it sister) oh so then we went to get free slurpees for 7/11. then drove to pick up brooke and her bro. we went to the adt guy's apt. then went to applebees....they take so long, by the time we get down there, like they are just ready to start thier night, and i have to be in bed in an hour.
last night.. we went to dinmner at Jade for p-boy's bday. good times. i realized that i suck as a family member. everyone has like a trilion stories...and i have none. i am good for nothing. no one even remember's me in the family. SAD! hahahah....its funny...but also depressing. we went around and told our favorite parker story, then i was like "i can't think of a single jessica story"....that sucks! oh well.
oh ya, so psycho guy from the dacne called last night....gooooo. i don't know if i should call him back. or not. i hate freaky OLD MEN!!!
things that make you go buhhhhhhh.
well back to work.
peace,
jess
anyway....lets see....monday i went to chili's with parker for his bday. we made val sing to us! i love parker! he's such a stud, he makes me laugh. then i went to fhe...just to talk on the phone for like 30 min to amanda farr. i never thought i'd say this...but really miss her!!! she really is a sweet girl. she of course made me all nostalgic and miss everyone. but she is a great listener....and made me feel good....especially about matt. She made me remember his personality. and its not like he blows people off on purpose...to be a guy...he just does it...and doesn't realize it. like you seriously need to be like "matt this is what you do..." but....im slowly getting over him. cuz i realized i need to move on!!! Mine and stephen's relationship came to the conclusion that missionary relationships are stupid. they need to move on, and so do you. 2 years is a long time. and if its right in 2 years...its right....if not....then well, at least you didn't waste any time. you can't move onto the future living in the past. (WOW THAT WAS DEEP!!!! WHO AM I!?!?...preach it sister) oh so then we went to get free slurpees for 7/11. then drove to pick up brooke and her bro. we went to the adt guy's apt. then went to applebees....they take so long, by the time we get down there, like they are just ready to start thier night, and i have to be in bed in an hour.
last night.. we went to dinmner at Jade for p-boy's bday. good times. i realized that i suck as a family member. everyone has like a trilion stories...and i have none. i am good for nothing. no one even remember's me in the family. SAD! hahahah....its funny...but also depressing. we went around and told our favorite parker story, then i was like "i can't think of a single jessica story"....that sucks! oh well.
oh ya, so psycho guy from the dacne called last night....gooooo. i don't know if i should call him back. or not. i hate freaky OLD MEN!!!
things that make you go buhhhhhhh.
well back to work.
peace,
jess