home sweet home
The one thing about vacation, it is always good to get home and back in your own home. Its nice! Wow....what a weekend, let me tell you.
so thursday i packed up early and headed out. Oh how i wished the road trip was just me and jill. Richelle and Jill W. came too. Jill W. started off being like 45 min late. so i was kinda bitter to begin with. whatever. I did get to see vals boy toy before I left. he seems like a good guy. (I'm going to the rockies game tonight w/ them, so we will see if i really do approve...hahah). then we left. it was kinda cool, that i drove the whole way, cuz i didn't pay for gas once. i think all the $ i spent there was on Cafe rio...amazingggg! mmmmm....I was in heaven! Anyway....thurs was a long drive, me and jill spent most of it listening to brian regan and seinfeld and playing the favorites game. we got in at like 2 ish. so about a 7 hr drive. not bad. I was so sick of the other girls by that time, that I made them sleep at jill's friends house, and I went to the doerfleins. I really do like my alone time!! a lot!!!
friday, I woke up and showered and went to campus. it was weird walking around there again. it reminded me soooo much of last summer term. I was pretty bitter though. I started to miss last summer a lot, but mainly matty. everything in provo now reminds me of provo. ever time i drive down university, go to the doerfleins, rio, pretty much EVERYWHER....I get all depressed. sweet life. How gay is that. But I went to talk to Britt, her papers are in, I'm so happy for her. she is so amazing!!! We went to liberty pool for a while. it was weird seeing familiar people but being in a different place....not the dorms. it was nice though. i got to see matt harris, robert c. root, and kate and linze. my new roomie seems pretty cool. shes super cute. a brand new freshmen (why u wouldn't live in the dorms fresh year is beyond me)so i think i am just gonna stay put. I was thinking about getting away on my own at liberty, but it is too much of a hastle, and might as well know 1 or 2 people im living with. I came back and showered and then we met up with jeff and ty and went to dinner at olive garden with everyone. dan, spencer, jeff, ty me, jill, and some girls. so from the beginning , richelle was kind of just there. it sucked. she was totally 5th wheel. i feel bad for her, but most of all it was kind of just annoying. i know she had fun which is good, but honestly it was weird talking about memories, and she's just sitting there. oh well. so we came back to the doerfleins and suprise suprise i fell asleep watching little rascals.
saturday, hmmm....I think we woke up, went to the pool again, went to rio, then to snowie....and then i came back to nap/shower for the stadium of fire. we went back to helaman, again the memories. cuz thats where me and aubrey watched them last year. it was actually a really good show. it was kind of a random bunch watching them with us. but it was fun. there was choke traffic getting out. it took me and jeff literally an hour to get from one end of DT to the other...which is prob about 100 yards....but it was cool cuz me and bitter jeff got to spend some time together. by the time we did get back to the doerfleins we started watching joe dirt...and guess what i did....fell asleep. i was on vacation i know, but i just couldn't do it. especially knowing i had to come back in a few days and jump right back into my routine.
sunday, I went to church with kate and rachael. it was cool.. weird being at the MARB. i miss the UPC building. i liked church in a normal building. it was really wierd also being with all RM's. i guess i'll get used to it. but it was nice. I love going to church. I bore my testimony in relief society....good times. we just went to that meeting then to a random ward's sacrament meeting cuz we had to go over to the doerflein's for sunday dinner. eiline neilson made us dinner. it was sooo good. we left right after taht to go to the MTC....sad....we didn't see any of my friends...but i prob should have realized before that there are literally 3500missionaries there at a given time. after we...oh ya, went to the doerfleins....kinda chatted. hung out....the guysare too good for games, then watched anchorman...and again...i fell asleep. i couldn't stay awake for the life of me. my sleep is vary valuable. but jeff had nevada come over and they ended up leaving together...and hooking up behind the temple...hahaha....good times. ;) and he started acting all weird.
so monday I woke up and me and dan and spencer went to the parade and freedom festival. I didn't realize how big of a deal it was. it was actually pretty good considering it was provo. we then went to the pool and hung out w/ britt and me and jill and jeff and ty. it was soo cool....us 4 got pretty close. but for some reason jeff wouldn't tell me anything that happened with him and nevada. why? i don't know. so i was like whatever. we'll talk later. we went to rio, then showed and stuff. and when we all got back to the doerfleins jeff and ty were kind of acting weird. me and jeff were gonna have "girl talk" but that didn't happen. amanda came with parker and brought some ilegal fireworks. it was so tight. dan was like a little school girl running around with roman candles shooting them. it was cool being w/ them. afterwards the 4 of us went up to Y mountain. we played the favorites game and chatted. it was so fun....another thing that reminded me of matty. sweet life. anyway...we were up there for a while watching fireworks from all over provo. and we left to go to bed. I had really bad alergies and was choke tired....i as we all know...i get pretty pissy when i am tired. so i came home and went to bed, without really saying anything to anyone.
so tuesday....all the tension built up. and evidently ty and jeff hate me now. Well time out...we went to bon losee to get a hair cut and highlighted....yeah for hair school. anyways..... jeff and ty are pissed at me...jeff would like hardly say anything. and ty lost his walet. evidently, i flirt too much and was leading both of them on or something, then when nothing happend they were all confused. I guess I thought that jeff and ty knew me better than that. ok ya, i flirt...A LOT! but honestly it is who i am. especially when i am super comfortable with a guy. and seeing as how i was getting super close to jeff and they both knew i am stilll obsessed with matty, i kinda figured i could let loose. but....no....they got pissed. and think i am huge whore...yada yada yada. i talked to jeff on the way home and was like "im sorry....its kinda who i am" we had like a misunderstanging...but he his still pissed. so whatever. part of me is all like...oh sad...but then again...he is leaving in 7 days...and i prob wont see him again. so im like what is it worth to try to mend this relationship...just so say goodbye AGAIN to him on the phone in 6 days. so im pretty bitter, obviously! and ty hates me. but i seriously am like...i don't even care. I get where they are coming from, but they shouldve said something....especially cuz when they did decide to bring it up, it was the second i was leaving. literally. look at me...all PRO-Communication...hahah...who am i?!?!
drama....holy cow. i havn't had drama allllll summer....literally...and the second i go back to provo, it jumps right back in my life. its kinda funny actually. but I am over it. i kinda wish i cared more....but i don't... we will see if jeff cares to call me tonight. whatev. oh ya, i saw brent and stephen yesterday. brent had just been set apart....he was all dressed up. i met them at deseret book. i was glad i got to see stephen and brent again. they are such cool guys. i think it is so weird how close we were last summer....and now....not at all. its kinda sad, but I'm over it. they will be great missionaries. aubrey said goodbye to him....she was a wrek...i know basically what she feels like....and it sucks. i can't wait for me, feg, ubs, lauren, and kate to all get together without our guys for next year!!! good ridence.
on that subject....i realize why i hate my life so much right now. i basically just want to move on. im sick of goodbyes...im sick of this limbo summer....just being here for the sole purpose of making money. i want my old friends to leave and my new ones to come. that sounds harsh.....but like im so sick of saying goodbye to all these guys....but it is true. it was good i went to utah...cuz if i hadn't...come august, it wouldve been a reality check X2. cuz this time i was all nostalgic....and next time i can kinda know to move on. like when i cam out this summer I was seriously in limbo. caught with the people from last year, but with the enviornment of next year. i want to either go back (which isn't going to happen) or move on...i choose move on. dan said that mom said that I was really bitter and sad this summer....guess so. I haas ben nice coming home this summer, seriously, but i am choke ready to move on.
so the whole way home me and jill made a list of what things we hate...pet peves...its actually a really good list. we were so bitter. but she was a good person to soak in my misery with. it was kinda funny, cuz she was playing like total middle man for the whole thing. i felt like i was in 6th grade.
so now its back to work, and im choke tired....and i have all this drama with a kid in new york right now, and a kid in california who im never gonna see again. boooo.....i can't wait for me to be happy and not hate my life. which will be....lets see.... .august 26th as far as im concerned.
jessica
so thursday i packed up early and headed out. Oh how i wished the road trip was just me and jill. Richelle and Jill W. came too. Jill W. started off being like 45 min late. so i was kinda bitter to begin with. whatever. I did get to see vals boy toy before I left. he seems like a good guy. (I'm going to the rockies game tonight w/ them, so we will see if i really do approve...hahah). then we left. it was kinda cool, that i drove the whole way, cuz i didn't pay for gas once. i think all the $ i spent there was on Cafe rio...amazingggg! mmmmm....I was in heaven! Anyway....thurs was a long drive, me and jill spent most of it listening to brian regan and seinfeld and playing the favorites game. we got in at like 2 ish. so about a 7 hr drive. not bad. I was so sick of the other girls by that time, that I made them sleep at jill's friends house, and I went to the doerfleins. I really do like my alone time!! a lot!!!
friday, I woke up and showered and went to campus. it was weird walking around there again. it reminded me soooo much of last summer term. I was pretty bitter though. I started to miss last summer a lot, but mainly matty. everything in provo now reminds me of provo. ever time i drive down university, go to the doerfleins, rio, pretty much EVERYWHER....I get all depressed. sweet life. How gay is that. But I went to talk to Britt, her papers are in, I'm so happy for her. she is so amazing!!! We went to liberty pool for a while. it was weird seeing familiar people but being in a different place....not the dorms. it was nice though. i got to see matt harris, robert c. root, and kate and linze. my new roomie seems pretty cool. shes super cute. a brand new freshmen (why u wouldn't live in the dorms fresh year is beyond me)so i think i am just gonna stay put. I was thinking about getting away on my own at liberty, but it is too much of a hastle, and might as well know 1 or 2 people im living with. I came back and showered and then we met up with jeff and ty and went to dinner at olive garden with everyone. dan, spencer, jeff, ty me, jill, and some girls. so from the beginning , richelle was kind of just there. it sucked. she was totally 5th wheel. i feel bad for her, but most of all it was kind of just annoying. i know she had fun which is good, but honestly it was weird talking about memories, and she's just sitting there. oh well. so we came back to the doerfleins and suprise suprise i fell asleep watching little rascals.
saturday, hmmm....I think we woke up, went to the pool again, went to rio, then to snowie....and then i came back to nap/shower for the stadium of fire. we went back to helaman, again the memories. cuz thats where me and aubrey watched them last year. it was actually a really good show. it was kind of a random bunch watching them with us. but it was fun. there was choke traffic getting out. it took me and jeff literally an hour to get from one end of DT to the other...which is prob about 100 yards....but it was cool cuz me and bitter jeff got to spend some time together. by the time we did get back to the doerfleins we started watching joe dirt...and guess what i did....fell asleep. i was on vacation i know, but i just couldn't do it. especially knowing i had to come back in a few days and jump right back into my routine.
sunday, I went to church with kate and rachael. it was cool.. weird being at the MARB. i miss the UPC building. i liked church in a normal building. it was really wierd also being with all RM's. i guess i'll get used to it. but it was nice. I love going to church. I bore my testimony in relief society....good times. we just went to that meeting then to a random ward's sacrament meeting cuz we had to go over to the doerflein's for sunday dinner. eiline neilson made us dinner. it was sooo good. we left right after taht to go to the MTC....sad....we didn't see any of my friends...but i prob should have realized before that there are literally 3500missionaries there at a given time. after we...oh ya, went to the doerfleins....kinda chatted. hung out....the guysare too good for games, then watched anchorman...and again...i fell asleep. i couldn't stay awake for the life of me. my sleep is vary valuable. but jeff had nevada come over and they ended up leaving together...and hooking up behind the temple...hahaha....good times. ;) and he started acting all weird.
so monday I woke up and me and dan and spencer went to the parade and freedom festival. I didn't realize how big of a deal it was. it was actually pretty good considering it was provo. we then went to the pool and hung out w/ britt and me and jill and jeff and ty. it was soo cool....us 4 got pretty close. but for some reason jeff wouldn't tell me anything that happened with him and nevada. why? i don't know. so i was like whatever. we'll talk later. we went to rio, then showed and stuff. and when we all got back to the doerfleins jeff and ty were kind of acting weird. me and jeff were gonna have "girl talk" but that didn't happen. amanda came with parker and brought some ilegal fireworks. it was so tight. dan was like a little school girl running around with roman candles shooting them. it was cool being w/ them. afterwards the 4 of us went up to Y mountain. we played the favorites game and chatted. it was so fun....another thing that reminded me of matty. sweet life. anyway...we were up there for a while watching fireworks from all over provo. and we left to go to bed. I had really bad alergies and was choke tired....i as we all know...i get pretty pissy when i am tired. so i came home and went to bed, without really saying anything to anyone.
so tuesday....all the tension built up. and evidently ty and jeff hate me now. Well time out...we went to bon losee to get a hair cut and highlighted....yeah for hair school. anyways..... jeff and ty are pissed at me...jeff would like hardly say anything. and ty lost his walet. evidently, i flirt too much and was leading both of them on or something, then when nothing happend they were all confused. I guess I thought that jeff and ty knew me better than that. ok ya, i flirt...A LOT! but honestly it is who i am. especially when i am super comfortable with a guy. and seeing as how i was getting super close to jeff and they both knew i am stilll obsessed with matty, i kinda figured i could let loose. but....no....they got pissed. and think i am huge whore...yada yada yada. i talked to jeff on the way home and was like "im sorry....its kinda who i am" we had like a misunderstanging...but he his still pissed. so whatever. part of me is all like...oh sad...but then again...he is leaving in 7 days...and i prob wont see him again. so im like what is it worth to try to mend this relationship...just so say goodbye AGAIN to him on the phone in 6 days. so im pretty bitter, obviously! and ty hates me. but i seriously am like...i don't even care. I get where they are coming from, but they shouldve said something....especially cuz when they did decide to bring it up, it was the second i was leaving. literally. look at me...all PRO-Communication...hahah...who am i?!?!
drama....holy cow. i havn't had drama allllll summer....literally...and the second i go back to provo, it jumps right back in my life. its kinda funny actually. but I am over it. i kinda wish i cared more....but i don't... we will see if jeff cares to call me tonight. whatev. oh ya, i saw brent and stephen yesterday. brent had just been set apart....he was all dressed up. i met them at deseret book. i was glad i got to see stephen and brent again. they are such cool guys. i think it is so weird how close we were last summer....and now....not at all. its kinda sad, but I'm over it. they will be great missionaries. aubrey said goodbye to him....she was a wrek...i know basically what she feels like....and it sucks. i can't wait for me, feg, ubs, lauren, and kate to all get together without our guys for next year!!! good ridence.
on that subject....i realize why i hate my life so much right now. i basically just want to move on. im sick of goodbyes...im sick of this limbo summer....just being here for the sole purpose of making money. i want my old friends to leave and my new ones to come. that sounds harsh.....but like im so sick of saying goodbye to all these guys....but it is true. it was good i went to utah...cuz if i hadn't...come august, it wouldve been a reality check X2. cuz this time i was all nostalgic....and next time i can kinda know to move on. like when i cam out this summer I was seriously in limbo. caught with the people from last year, but with the enviornment of next year. i want to either go back (which isn't going to happen) or move on...i choose move on. dan said that mom said that I was really bitter and sad this summer....guess so. I haas ben nice coming home this summer, seriously, but i am choke ready to move on.
so the whole way home me and jill made a list of what things we hate...pet peves...its actually a really good list. we were so bitter. but she was a good person to soak in my misery with. it was kinda funny, cuz she was playing like total middle man for the whole thing. i felt like i was in 6th grade.
so now its back to work, and im choke tired....and i have all this drama with a kid in new york right now, and a kid in california who im never gonna see again. boooo.....i can't wait for me to be happy and not hate my life. which will be....lets see.... .august 26th as far as im concerned.
jessica