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I really don't think I have ever been such a negative person. I just feel like the biggest loser. For example...I read today. I have never just picked up a book and read. EVER! So today I started The work and the glory II. Its actually really good, I like it a lot. Weird huh!?!? I just have no motivation to do anything. I would give anything to go back to school the way things were...and it kills me to know that things will NEVER be like that again.
So sunday I went to Blaine's farewell. It was awesome. He gave a great talk and his sisters both did musical numbers. I started to cry of course! Then he had a little shindig for afterwards. There were like 15 of us that went....I LOVE IT! It felt like real church again. I'm gonan miss it so bad. Sadly, I'm really excited to go to church this Sunday and see how things work out. Hopefully I can meet some new cool people taht I can hang out with this summer. I seriously have NO desire to hang out with ANYYYY of my friends....which is so weird. Blaine's dad started to videotape all of us saying a little something...of course I start balling. I had to say goodbye to him and matt harris and garrett and rory and mike castillo. It sucked! I was all balling for the first 15 min of our trip. and matt doesn't show emotion so he was all like uhhhhhh. But I was so glad he came with me, it would not have been a barable trip. We went through wyoming. we stopped in wal-mart....I honestly just lvoe hanging out with that kid. our relaionship is just so chill....soooo layed back, sometimes its almost annoyingh ow chill he is. he drove like 5 hrs of the way. It was sweet to be w/ him. Then he came home and we made mac and cheese and browines and watched a movie.
The next morning i went and woke him up. and we went to the driving range with parker then to chipotle. Then we came back and played LIFE and ping pong. It was so fun just chillin. we were going to go to denver w/ megan and isaac but they didn't wanna go down there...so we ended up just going to park medows and hanging out there. I didn't care, I just loved every second of haning out w/ him. Then we came back and watched the ward video w/ mom and dad then went to see the interpreter. It was good. we stayed up "talking" haha....and then went to bed.
On tuesday we went to mission trijillo with grandma and grandpa. IT was fun and delicious. we came back and played outside some games then went and chatted for a few hours then went to Borders then I took him to the airport....it sucked im not gonna like. I tried so many times this week not to just burst into tears infront of him.
I have not interest to find another guy. and it kinda kills me that matt either doesn't feel the same way, or doesn't show emotion. It is going to take me a while for me to get over him. I HATE IT! Ive never been so whipped over a guy.
wednesay I finished unpacking and cleaining my room. Then at night I went to Jeremiah's house when we went to chipotle and then to walmarkt to make cookies and watch finding neverland.
today well...I FREAKING READ! Then i went to nick kirchhof's. Its weird to be around him too. he's so easy to tlak to....but just thinking o when we were together....WERID! but I went there for dinner. I just watched the Apprentice and now im talking online. prob gonna go READDDD some more....weird. Well....my life sucks! sSWEETT....I'm so bitter. its sad!
late, jess
So sunday I went to Blaine's farewell. It was awesome. He gave a great talk and his sisters both did musical numbers. I started to cry of course! Then he had a little shindig for afterwards. There were like 15 of us that went....I LOVE IT! It felt like real church again. I'm gonan miss it so bad. Sadly, I'm really excited to go to church this Sunday and see how things work out. Hopefully I can meet some new cool people taht I can hang out with this summer. I seriously have NO desire to hang out with ANYYYY of my friends....which is so weird. Blaine's dad started to videotape all of us saying a little something...of course I start balling. I had to say goodbye to him and matt harris and garrett and rory and mike castillo. It sucked! I was all balling for the first 15 min of our trip. and matt doesn't show emotion so he was all like uhhhhhh. But I was so glad he came with me, it would not have been a barable trip. We went through wyoming. we stopped in wal-mart....I honestly just lvoe hanging out with that kid. our relaionship is just so chill....soooo layed back, sometimes its almost annoyingh ow chill he is. he drove like 5 hrs of the way. It was sweet to be w/ him. Then he came home and we made mac and cheese and browines and watched a movie.
The next morning i went and woke him up. and we went to the driving range with parker then to chipotle. Then we came back and played LIFE and ping pong. It was so fun just chillin. we were going to go to denver w/ megan and isaac but they didn't wanna go down there...so we ended up just going to park medows and hanging out there. I didn't care, I just loved every second of haning out w/ him. Then we came back and watched the ward video w/ mom and dad then went to see the interpreter. It was good. we stayed up "talking" haha....and then went to bed.
On tuesday we went to mission trijillo with grandma and grandpa. IT was fun and delicious. we came back and played outside some games then went and chatted for a few hours then went to Borders then I took him to the airport....it sucked im not gonna like. I tried so many times this week not to just burst into tears infront of him.
I have not interest to find another guy. and it kinda kills me that matt either doesn't feel the same way, or doesn't show emotion. It is going to take me a while for me to get over him. I HATE IT! Ive never been so whipped over a guy.
wednesay I finished unpacking and cleaining my room. Then at night I went to Jeremiah's house when we went to chipotle and then to walmarkt to make cookies and watch finding neverland.
today well...I FREAKING READ! Then i went to nick kirchhof's. Its weird to be around him too. he's so easy to tlak to....but just thinking o when we were together....WERID! but I went there for dinner. I just watched the Apprentice and now im talking online. prob gonna go READDDD some more....weird. Well....my life sucks! sSWEETT....I'm so bitter. its sad!
late, jess