so what am i doing here?
Today was a fucking miserable day. Because of andrea bush, I have decided to bitch and moan on a live journal like everyone else. Because honestly, who ever listens to me anyways besides andrea?
So everyone who knows me knows that my basic obsession is volleyball. I love it, I want to pursue it in college and in AVP and maybe someday play for Team USA in the Olympics. That might be a stretch, but who knows? But anyways, today we had a horrible practice which made me think about my future in Volleyball, and i thought to myself "What the hell am I doing? I'm never going to play in college." Let's face it, I am 5'6, 150pounds of mostly fat, and i'm basically not good enough to play collegiate level. So why am i trying so hard? Is it the fact that I care so much about a dream that will eventually be shattered? For now, my high school years, which have been a bitch for me seeing that I am not in the class of 2007 at Choate anymore, I just have to live my dream and after graduation let it shatter in my heart, because that's the only place i can play Volleyball after Berkshire.
So everyone who knows me knows that my basic obsession is volleyball. I love it, I want to pursue it in college and in AVP and maybe someday play for Team USA in the Olympics. That might be a stretch, but who knows? But anyways, today we had a horrible practice which made me think about my future in Volleyball, and i thought to myself "What the hell am I doing? I'm never going to play in college." Let's face it, I am 5'6, 150pounds of mostly fat, and i'm basically not good enough to play collegiate level. So why am i trying so hard? Is it the fact that I care so much about a dream that will eventually be shattered? For now, my high school years, which have been a bitch for me seeing that I am not in the class of 2007 at Choate anymore, I just have to live my dream and after graduation let it shatter in my heart, because that's the only place i can play Volleyball after Berkshire.