Time To Say Goodbye...
Abs Babs07: whats wrong with me? be totally honest
Maybe2morrow609: HONESLTY nothing at all. like i'm being so honest too
Maybe2morrow609: you have the best personality
Maybe2morrow609: you are so pretty
Maybe2morrow609: i dont' get it
I don't get it either. I've heard so many times "Abby you're awesome" or "Abby you're sooo hot", but I don't feel it or see it. If these are true, then why have I only had one boyfriend. Why did that one boyfriend use me just so he could lose his virginity and then break up with me? There is this one guy who i think is an absolute angel. He's cute, has a great body, is very funny, and we connect really well. So what's the problem? I don't know. I'm only viewed as a friend. How much does that suck? What is wrong with me? I know I shouldn't even care about relationships. I'm 17 in April, I have a ton of time to find someone to date, but why all of a sudden am i so obsessed with finding someone to eventually love? I don't know why i even want to be in love. Something about it is illuminating, but at the same is scary to think about. I've fallen in love before, twice actually. No, one of them wasn't Nate, I was never in love with him. One person was at Choate and one at Berkshire. The Berkshire guy, none of you will be able to guess who it is, so i'm not telling. But the point is, both times nothing ever came out of it. I was so afraid to tell the person how i felt, and when somebody else did it for me, they turned me down and didn't say why. =I don't understand what I have been doing wrong. I haven't been a slut anymore like people think I am, so what's up? If you're a guy and you know the answer to my dilema please tell me ASAP.
I'm just tired of being lonely...
Maybe2morrow609: HONESLTY nothing at all. like i'm being so honest too
Maybe2morrow609: you have the best personality
Maybe2morrow609: you are so pretty
Maybe2morrow609: i dont' get it
I don't get it either. I've heard so many times "Abby you're awesome" or "Abby you're sooo hot", but I don't feel it or see it. If these are true, then why have I only had one boyfriend. Why did that one boyfriend use me just so he could lose his virginity and then break up with me? There is this one guy who i think is an absolute angel. He's cute, has a great body, is very funny, and we connect really well. So what's the problem? I don't know. I'm only viewed as a friend. How much does that suck? What is wrong with me? I know I shouldn't even care about relationships. I'm 17 in April, I have a ton of time to find someone to date, but why all of a sudden am i so obsessed with finding someone to eventually love? I don't know why i even want to be in love. Something about it is illuminating, but at the same is scary to think about. I've fallen in love before, twice actually. No, one of them wasn't Nate, I was never in love with him. One person was at Choate and one at Berkshire. The Berkshire guy, none of you will be able to guess who it is, so i'm not telling. But the point is, both times nothing ever came out of it. I was so afraid to tell the person how i felt, and when somebody else did it for me, they turned me down and didn't say why. =I don't understand what I have been doing wrong. I haven't been a slut anymore like people think I am, so what's up? If you're a guy and you know the answer to my dilema please tell me ASAP.
I'm just tired of being lonely...