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[setissma]

i ordinarily try not to post stupid emo posts but you know? my entire life is kind of a train wreck disaster area at the moment. i have literally no idea what i'm doing with my life after may, none whatsoever, all my best efforts to have a social life here are just kind of met with Too Busy For Me, my online social life is kind of also Too Busy For Me lately, and my iphone shuffle feature keeps throwing 'dust to dust' at me because there's nothing like crying in traffic to 'you're just lonely, you've been lonely too long,' because yeah, pretty much. i just had another birthday and come to magically think of it, the last year was kind of one of the most screwed up and stupid of my life. and i'm having valentine's day dinner with the people i dogsit for because... well, it wasn't entirely possible for my life to get more pathetic, but then i went there.

so, to review, kind of effectively fired from phd portion of grad school because my advisor is ludicrous and i got punished for not meeting the standards of some other institution, no idea about the other program because why the hell would they tell anyone ever about decisions and maybe it's better not to know because i'm pretty confident i won't get in, no actual significant other (yet another year of bad decisions and non-decisions and, well, nothing), meds suck (again), and just things generally being totally screwed up. hurrah.

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